February 3 2025

VINEETO to Henry: Personally, I still keep my own counsel as to what name they go by or how they are organized. It’s enough to know that a large group of people secretly but quite obviously have nefarious and Malthusian aims, plans and plenty of means, ways and power to be quite successful at present. As an uninformed and gullible citizen ‘I’ used to wonder why there were so many wars when apparently none of the ordinary people really wanted to go to war. It took a long time to find out why. (Actualism, ActualVineeto, Henry, 2 February 2025a)

CLAUDIU: Although there may be a few large key players that actually set the agenda, I am not sure if there’s really an actual shadowy cabal of people working in concert to do this. I could see it being a psychic chimera that exists only in the human psyche which swirls and sworls and now has a life of its own. Some may call it a demon — of course it would not be any corporal demon but as a psychic phenomenon one could call it that. In more prosaic terms, the apparent collective thrust in one anti-human political direction may very well be an emergent phenomenon, fuelled by instinctual passions, rather than one orchestrated by a small elite. This is only supposition on my part but the latter is a more plausible explanation to me currently.

VINEETO: Hi Claudiu,

It seems pointless to work out which opinion is more in line with facts as there are very few confirmed facts available, given the ‘cabal’s’ secret nature. The effects and extent of their actions demonstrably cover a wide range, such as dominant influence in international governments, and government departments such as military, federal police, national security, education and judiciary, as well as banking, certain influential industries and main media, to name but a few. The World Economic Forum itself appears to have similarly stated dictatorial aims (“you vill own nothing and vill be happy!”). (Formation and Persistence of Social Identity, #05).

With the extent of misinformation, disinformation, and scare-tactics it is hard to find out what is factually going on. If it is a “small elite” or a large affiliation does not really matter – even a small ‘virus’, via ‘gain of function’, can spread worldwide, and given the passionate nature of the psychic “swirls and sworls”, it is easy to make frequent and effective use of the instinctual passions as a strategy to pit one group of peasants against another to divert attention from the puppet masters.

In the final analysis, those vitally interested to be actually free from the human condition only need to be informed and investigative enough to discover and discard their own loyalty and belonging, their attitudes, affiliations, values, principles and finally the tendency and capacity to believing itself, in other words, be able to free themselves of the trappings of their own peasant mentality and social identity.

With sincerity and naiveté this can be a fun activity, when one discovers one’s dignity and autonomy, as one bond of belonging and loyalty to one group or another dissolves in the thrilling revelation that they are not only unnecessary but in fact detrimental to ongoing felicity and genuine caring.

CLAUDIU: In any case, as DOGE and the executive grant has just cut off their funding at the root, expect a massive backlash and reaction from the tens and perhaps hundreds of thousands of people whose livelihoods are now at stake. They have nothing to lose and will certainly fight back!

VINEETO: Thank you for your detailed and very informative report. It is fascinating to read about the extensive current action of “DOGE” to restrict the massive wasteful spending of funds that can be so much more beneficially applied elsewhere.

Cheers Vineeto (Actualism, Actualvineeto, Claudiu 4, 3 February 2025).

February 5 2025

HENRY: As long as I had been playing within the sandbox of my pre-approved belief system there was no thrill and no jeopardy, because everything had already been ‘set up’ by someone else, some distant authority who was ‘in charge’ of what was going to happen, thus absolving me of any involvement – all I had to do was agree with the talking points, argue with the right people, and maybe show up to the occasional protest. It’s clear to me in this moment that that has had an anesthetizing effect on me. Now, it’s more obvious that these things are actually happening, and by fully involving myself, I am obviously involved in the outcome as well. I am no longer an anonymous sheep, but an acting agent.

An interesting element is that I can see myself instinctively seeking a ‘tribe,’ for example instinctively pre-emptively defending the opposite political camp despite still having an infantile understanding of the field. Apparently it is unbearable to not be in any camp at all.

VINEETO: This “instinctively seeking a ‘tribe’” is, of course, the instinctive need to belong which had been operating all along but now is more apparent because you no longer oblige automatically but are “an acting agent”. As for “defending the opposite political camp” I am reminded of what you recently wrote –

Henry: I remember thinking that it was like I was looking at the actual ‘star-dust’ that everything is made of, rather than building out a narrative based on relative values. There was a solidity and purity to everything. I’m feeling quite encouraged by this experience. (Actualism, Actualvineeto, Henry, 2 February 2025).

There is a third alternative, and you are already acting on the sincere intent to become free from the human condition.

HENRY: Returning to the initial subject above, there is some connection. I research because I want the best outcome for all, myself included, and that is a felt desire. I think part of where I have dissociated has been from being rejected by my peers in the past (primarily online along identity politics lines) and feeling hurt by that. I found myself in a strange position of partly still believing in their views while also feeling hurt & threatened by them. It left me with a resentment and anger that I felt I had to hide, which I think has led to the dissociation. Part of that dissociation has been an inability to see my ‘enemies’ as humans – I see them only as people that I desire to be closer to, while simultaneously experiencing fear and anger toward them.

So it was never really about me, it was about their beliefs. There isn’t much I can do to change anyone’s mind, so it’s best to just move on with my life. I also now see them as being just as lost as I felt until very recently.

VINEETO: The more you uncover and understand ‘who’ you are – this lost, lonely, frightened and very cunning entity inside – the more you can also acknowledge and recognize that you are like everyone else – a fellow human being afflicted with the same beliefs, principles, feelings and passions. This sincere recognition allows you to re-awaken your long-lost naiveté where you like yourself and like others (A Quaint Clay-Pit Tale). Miraculously, when you like yourself and others, you will find that you are much more at ease not to be “in any camp at all”.

HENRY: I had a very moving experience yesterday watching a live seminar in my town with a variety of political & social alignments all working toward the same goal of combating human trafficking. I could see how everyone was trying to put together what was happening, that they all cared a lot about the issue but they each had their own worldview of what the issue was and how to tackle it. It was comedic at times seeing how big the gulf in worldviews and priorities was, but the common thread was that felt desire to do something. That’s the humanizing for me right now, and that’s where I can see I’m beginning to open up again.

VINEETO: I am reminded of this particular quote from Richard –

Richard: … gently ushering in an increasing ease and generosity of character. With this growing magnanimity, one becomes more and more anonymous, more and more selflessly motivated. With this expanding altruism one becomes less and less self-centred, less and less egocentric ... the humanitarian ideals of peace, kindness, caring, benevolence and humaneness become more and more evident as an actuality. (Richard, List B, James, 17 October 1999).

What you experienced in a “moving” way “watching a live seminar” were not merely “humanitarian ideals” but they can potentially become “evident as an actuality” as the inherent values of the overarching benignity and benevolence of the infinitude of the universe. This sporadic coming together of human beings in order to actualize some of the “humanitarian ideals of peace, kindness, caring, benevolence and humaneness” is wonderful to observe or participate in. Even though this action is so often brought to naught by interference from the instinctual passions, it is nevertheless marvellous what beneficiary feats have been achieved despite the human condition.

HENRY: I can’t prevent others from attacking me sometimes, but as Claudiu pointed out I can be thoughtful/ careful about what I say to who, and when I am attacked I can recognize where they are coming from and not take it personally, not retreat into a depressive shell as I always have. That’s where engaging in thrill is again helpful. Plenty of thrill to go around here!

Through this process, good & evil & the powers they wield have begun to come into focus. I have distanced myself from them for so long that it’s not fully there, but I intend to engage as fully as I can.

VINEETO: Hint – when you remove your own emotional hooks of feeling anger, indignance, annoyance, hurt and so on, you will be increasingly emotionally untouched by others “attacking” you. Then their arrows won’t reach their intended target as in “water off a duck’s back”. In other words, when you are felicitous, any personal attack will not be felt by you as a personal attack, and your adversary recognizes psychically that their arrow hasn’t reached its target.

Then you can put facts right, if the effort appears necessary, or call them out as being silly. When you are not affected emotionally you can treat them as fellow human beings, afflicted by the same passions like everyone including yourself. Then a more amicable discussion is a possibility.

The first part of the quote cited above might be helpful as well –

Richard: This is why remembering a PCE is so important for success for it shows one, first hand, that freedom is already always here ... now. With the memory of that crystal-clear perfection held firmly in mind, that basic resentment vanishes forever, and then it is a relatively easy task to eliminate anger once and for all. One does this by neither expressing or repressing anger when an event happens that would previously trigger an outbreak (Richard, Selected Correspondence, Aggression). Anger is thus put into a bind, and the third alternative hoves into view, dispensing with the hostility that is a large part of ‘I’ the aggressive psychological entity, and gently ushering in an increasing ease and generosity of character. (Richard, List B, James, 17 Oct 1999).

Cheers Vineeto (Actualism, Actualvineeto, Henry, 5 February 2025).

February 7 2025

VINEETO: As Richard explained, ‘Vineeto’ “had shifted ‘her’ familially-inculcated and societally-instilled allegiance to ‘the system’ at large over onto the spiritual commune” and therefore had no issue with real-world peasant-mentality topics such as career, status, wealth and ‘disguised slavery’ except those applicable in the commune. For instance, the ‘slavery’ consisted of doing work without pay in order to belong to a slightly more privileged ‘inner’ circle.

KUBA: I was going to write this exactly that these ‘counter culture’ values can end up working in the same way as spiritual values in that they are very slimy to get hold of. They appear to offer an escape from the grind and yet it is all the same game under a different guise. Which does make it that much harder to expose. And this has been the case exactly with me, that it was so obvious for me to release those values as they applied to working a career etc and yet those same values would leave me restless unless I was constantly progressing in my “alternate endeavours”. The hierarchy, the power, the recognition, the belonging etc it was all there but hidden.

VINEETO: Hi Kuba,

Ha, you are so right. I remember when Richard in an early conversation in 1998 said that he could drive buses through the large holes in any religion/ spirituality, ‘Vineeto’ was flabbergasted as ‘she’ could not see any hole in any of their/ ‘her’ spiritual beliefs. ‘She’ had swallowed Eastern mysticism hook, line and sinker thanks to the powerful seductive atmosphere of divine love and compassion in the commune. People who haven’t experienced it personally usually don’t comprehend the power of these psychic vibes emanating from an enlightened ‘being’ and just deem followers as silly, while not recognizing their own entrapment.

If ‘Vineeto’ had noticed any structure and/or hierarchy of values and principles, for instance privileges for those with a lot of money, it was ok, because the goal was ‘good’. Hence dismantling it all took a while and questioning loyalty at the start made it a lot easier.

Cheers Vineeto (Actualism, Actualvineeto, Kuba 4, 7 February 2025).

March 9 2025

VINEETO: Indeed, it does take some time but what it really takes is action. Observing is not enough and they won’t fall away by themselves. Actualism is not the neo-buddhistic ‘noting’ which is nothing but a dissociation practice.

SCOUT: Good pointer, thank you. I definitely still retain some degree of buddhist passivity.

VINEETO: What it takes is paying diligent attention whenever you notice a diminishment of feeling good, you take note of the trigger and then investigate the cause of the trigger – sometimes it is an old habit which you can decline, sometimes it is something deeper which needs further exploration. Don’t remain passive, which is obvious an acquired habit which only serves to keep you miserable.

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VINEETO: Presently you merely proved to yourself that your addiction to suffering is indeed unchangeable and therefore justified. Do you recognize the trick you play with yourself? You simply changed suffering about your own pain (which is too difficult to look at because of an underlying fear) to suffering for other people’s sake, especially in situations in which you can do nothing and where your own sympathy, empathy and compassion can offer no practical assistance. It only makes you suffer on their behalf on top of suffering on your own behalf so that you can feel less ‘selfish’.

SCOUT: Also true!! And it’s hard to let go of too because of tribal allegiances, because compassion and self-sacrifice is a high moral virtue within my family (who I am very close with). I’ve actually started questioning the tenets of compassion and martyrdom with them in the past and they bristled rather strongly so I dropped it.

VINEETO: Ah, there you have uncovered one reason for maintaining this habit of remaining passive – loyalty. Excellent.

There is no need to “questioning the tenets of compassion and martyrdom with them”, you only need to question those “tenets of compassion and martyrdom” with yourself. Be courageous to leave the nest because remaining in the fold of “tribal allegiances” has only served to keep you imprisoned with their demands of “suffering together” (com-passion).

You do not need, nor can you change others. The only person you can and need to change is yourself.

SCOUT: I guess their compassion, like mine, is limited in scope and does not extend its mercy to those who don’t subscribe to a similar world view. At any rate, it definitely doesn’t help anyone to linger in pain just because other people are in pain, for whatever reason.

VINEETO: Ha, that is a high prize for receiving a sense of allegiance, don’t you think?

Here is a snippet of conversation feeling being ‘Vineeto’ had with Richard on that very topic in 1997 –

R: I remember you and I having a conversation about loyalty the second or third time you came here. You were realising that you had loyalty to hold you back

Q(2): Yes, it took a while for me to work through. It is a feeling of belonging, and when I dismantled what loyalty is made up of then it loses its virtue.

R: It is connected with belonging? To a particular group? So all these group therapies that people do, they would not question that loyalty, would they? Because they belong to that very group that is running the therapies. The whole thing of the commune.

Q(2): It’s a new loyalty – away from the family and toward the commune.

R: Whereas I am only interested in being rid of loyalty altogether – however strange that may initially seem. [Emphasis added]. (Richard, Audio taped Dialogues, Compassion Gained through Forgiveness Binds).

There are more details on this topic in “Basic to Full Freedom” if you are interested.

Be courageous and begin to take your life into your own hands. You already made the first step in discovering what is presently holding back.

Cheers Vineeto (Actualism, Actualvineeto, Scout, 9 March 2025).

October 31 2025

VINEETO: Hi Sonya,

SONYA: Another one of the good feelings I’ve noticed pops up quite often is the feeling of belonging. I think the feeling of belonging isn’t caring. It means that you belong to a group and by that exclude others that don’t belong to your group. There’s a Taylor Swift song called “You’re on your own kid” that always makes me well up. Essentially it’s about the feeling of needing and wanting to belong. That is the other side of belonging, being lonely. So ultimately, to free myself from being lonely (bad feeling), I will also have to free myself from belonging (good feeling). I think hahaha. I’m kinda just writing and trying to figure it out at the same time.

VINEETO: Exactly. The feeling of belonging is a two-edged sword. You seek to belong so as to not feel lonely, and yet you find that there are various strings attached in order to belong. In fact, you can almost call such strings (unwritten) social contracts because you have to behave in a certain way in order to belong. We have touched on it briefly before, when you talked about not being able to talk about the feeling of love with your girlfriends the way they do, for instance –

Sonya: I think it’s more in relation with other women and leaving the sisterhood behind, I sometimes feel like my friends are speaking a different language and I sometimes feel sad or awkward I can’t join in on the conversation. There’s a fear that I won’t be fun or interesting anymore. (Sonya’s Journal 3 July 2025).

Feeling connected is also part of belonging –

Sonya: Yes, I think this is the nurture aspect coming in for me. I still feel nurturing to Kuba, if he is happy then I am happy, if he is upset, I’ll be upset (luckily he is very rarely upset nowadays) and I tend to lean more towards doing things that make him happy first. Of course, I enjoy cooking/ baking foods that he likes or giving him a pedicure/ manicure and that doesn’t have to stop but it’s the feeling of nurturing him that’s the issue. Haha I see it a bit more now, it’s very one-sided. On my side, I’m playing the nurturing game, ‘taking care’ of him etc. On his side he’s just enjoying some warm brownies and nice cuticles. And I am holding on to this feeling of connection and being connected so I can still play the nurture game! (Sonya’s Journal, 3 July 2025).

There is a deeper reason why the feeling of belonging is so important for every feeling being –

Richard: It is more than likely that ‘the need to belong’ arises from the herd instinct – gregariousness runs deep – with layer upon layer of socialisation compounding this primal urge. The very first thing to do is separate out needs from urges (desires): unless one is living as a hermit off nuts and berries deep in a remote forest one needs one’s fellow human beings for a whole raft of things (I need a shopkeeper to sell me goods as much as a shopkeeper needs me to sell goods to for example) and the most fundamental needs amount to five survival essentials ... air, water, food, shelter (if protection be necessary), and clothing (if the weather be inclement).

Thus a starving need for ‘acceptance, love, belonging’ would be better described as a starving desire for ‘acceptance, love, belonging’ as it does not take long to work out that one does not need the shopkeeper (for example) to dish out ‘acceptance, love, belonging’ along with the small change ... indeed a modern-day super-mart employee more often than not is obliged to chant the ubiquitous ‘thank you for shopping at x-mart’ dirge rather than it being a pleasantry arising out mutual regard.

Why then the desire for ‘acceptance, love, belonging’ (and thus the collapsing defence mechanisms)?

There is more to it than the hereditarily programmed gregarian urge, of course, as the basic instinctual passions in general, such as fear and aggression and nurture and desire, automatically form themselves into a feeling ‘being’ ... which is who ‘I’ am at root (‘me’ at the core of ‘my’ being is ‘being’ itself). And any ‘me’ (a genetically encoded passionate inchoate ‘presence’ or rudimentary survival ‘self’ as it were) is an alien identity forever locked-out of paradise (the source of sorrow, by the way, but that is another story) desiring validation from all the other alien identities.

Put simply: ‘acceptance, love, belonging’ verifies, endorses, and consolidates ‘me’ ... and not only am ‘I’ thus authenticated, sanctioned, and substantiated but ‘my’ presence has meaning as well. (Richard, Actual Freedom List, No. 42, 29 April 2003)

There is more, perhaps eye-opening, correspondence here (Richard, Selected Correspondence, The Need to Belong)

Another one of the good feelings is desire, and Chrono has described his own investigation into sexual desire –

Richard: A general rule of thumb is: if it is a preference it is a self-less inclination; if it is an urge it is a self-centred desire. (Richard, Actual Freedom List, 25d, 14 January 2004)

Chrono: This has been a very helpful approach. Looking at if it’s an urge or a preference. I see now how chasing the ‘high’ that comes from allowing the libidinous drive is very much insanity. It’s a dead-end and goes in circles. It never ends and nothing ever gets solved. However, there is also the feeling accompanying the contemplation of abandoning it that I would “miss out” on something. There’s some inherent belief to libido that it’s needed for something very important in its expression. To keep following it. But it is at root, unintelligent. Now it’s a matter of weakening its stranglehold and drive by declining each time.

I’ve been trying to look at it as sincerely as possible. Even indulging in the libidinous urge to see what is exactly happening. There is a positive hedonic tone and I never found a reason to abandon it before. Seeing it now though the aspect that really stands out is the ‘drive’ of it. It’s simply a race to orgasm. The experience lacks autonomy and is not of a free enjoyment nor of an equitable intimacy. (Chrono’s Journal, 13 October 2025)

There are more ‘good’ feelings such as other loving and trusting feelings like hope, compassion, gratitude and faith, but that can be a topic for another time.

Cheers Vineeto (Actualism, Actualvineeto, Sonya, 31 October 2025).