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Selected Correspondence Peter
Harmless

No 64 to No 32 – I’m participating in a
discussion list and suggesting that some of its members are full of bullshit.
Over the years we have had many people who have come to this mailing list
with this motive. It appears that for whatever personal reasons they are moved to fabricate distortions, concoct
falsehoods, contrive exaggerations, broadcast innuendo, disseminate gossip, seed insinuations, create suspicion,
encourage ambiguity, cast aspersions and, if that doesn’t work, revert to rudeness and even hostility, apparently for
the sole reason of preventing other people from deciding for themselves as to whether or not they are interested in
actualism or to cut them down a peg or two should they be so bold as to declare that they are interested in actualism.
You are not the first to play this game, nor will you be the last, because there are currently in excess of 6 billion
souls on this planet with a vested interest in maintaining the status quo of the current human condition.
Speaking personally, when I came across the challenge that is actualism, I
could find nothing at all worthy of defending in the human condition – neither could I justify anger nor could I
champion sorrow – which is, in hindsight, why I chose to devote my life to becoming happy and harmless.
I could not agree more with your last long sentence.
Yep. There is a simple choice offered in actualism – either stay as you are
or set off on a path that is not only utterly contrary to one’s social conditioning but also goes completely against
one’s instinctual survival passions. I can remember the decision as being somewhat daunting at the start so much so
that I likened it to entering a tunnel with a large sign over it saying ‘Above all, do not enter here’.
I do think that I have been deterred a bit by other
people on this list.
This is after all their sole aim in writing on this mailing list – to deter
those who dare to get off their backsides, stand on their own two feet and begin the journey out of the human condition,
from doing so.
And as you can see, they will literally stop at nothing in their efforts to
intimidate anyone who shows any interest whatsoever in actualism.
But I also remember when I first discovered
actualism, and the numerous PCE’s that followed.
Despite all the bluff and bluster of the nay-sayers who would have you live
your life according to their beliefs and their principles, there is a wonderful freedom in realizing that there is
nobody standing in the way of freedom – a fact that is made startlingly evident in a pure consciousness experience.
I am certainly curious of the motives that anyone
has who speaks against the intent to be completely free of malice and sorrow.
I find it useful to remember the vehemence to which past discoveries have
been resisted by those with a vested interest in maintaining the status quo. Those who dared to question the teachings
of the church in the Dark Ages were labelled heretics and burnt at the stake and the beginnings of the scientific revolution that was to
sweep through Europe was marked by fierce resistance both from the churches and from intellectuals and fellow scientists
who had a vested interest in maintaining the ancient beliefs and archaic superstitions.
The recent discovery of the means to bring about an actual freedom from the
human condition of malice and sorrow is likewise being resisted and those who choose to be pioneers in this business
will invariably bear the brunt of the wrath and scorn of those who have taken it upon themselves to be defenders of the
human condition.
In short, I see absolutely nothing wrong with giving
full attention to each moment of being alive with the intention of becoming fully happy and harmless.
I remember thinking at one stage how very odd it was that I was feeling
guilty because I had made being happy and harmless the most important thing in my life. I soon tracked it down to the
fact that I was feeling guilty for not feeling sad. As I mulled it over, the perversity of this feeling of guilt really
began to set in – if everyone held on to this guilty feeling then nobody would ever become free of sorrow, which would
mean that human suffering would never ever come to an end – which meant that if I held on to my guilt about not
feeling sad, I would never be free of sorrow.
Needless to say, very soon after I stopped living my life in accord with the
morality of those who have a vested interest in maintaining not only their own emotional suffering but that of all of
their fellow human beings.
So far no one has supplied a decent argument to give
reason to find fault with this.
No, no one. I found that all I needed to do was work my way through the list
of objections and eventually I came to the conclusion that the repertoire of the nay-sayers is not only limited but is
inconsequential as well.
Eventually I got to the stage where I refused to be so silly as to be hooked
into their beliefs and swayed by their opinions any more –actualism makes sense whereas spiritualism does not make
sense and nor does it even claim to make sense.
The other aspect of the objectors’ approach is that they use an array of
tactics specifically designed to intimidate those who they regard as their opponents. Verbal intimidation is a
well-known way of provoking fear in others and as such is one of the most powerful means of maintaining psychic power
over others. It is useful to keep this in mind when reading intimidatory posts – whilst one may be able to easily see
that their objections are silly, it is possible to still be affected by the intimidatory nature of their postings.
The most effective way I found of dealing with this is to keep in mind the
purity and perfection of the pure consciousness experience of the actual world … or at least to keep in mind that
these people are, de facto, championing malice and sorrow by the very act of objecting to others who have set their
sights on being happy and harmless.

I’ll repost a U.G. Krishnamurti quote that Richard recently posted to you
as you might have missed its significance first time around –
[Mr. Uppaluri Krishnamurti]: ‘The personality does
not change when you come into this [natural] state (...) The personality will remain the same. Don’t expect such a man
to become free from *anger*...’ [emphasis added]. (from Part Two, ‘The
Mystique Of Enlightenment’; Second Edition; Published by: Akshaya Publications, Bangalore, INDIA. 1992; www.well.com/user/jct/moetitle.htm).
Richard to Respondent 27.10.2003
I have also watched several videotapes of U.G. Krishnamurti with gatherings
of his followers and I particularly remember him being scornful and dismissive of an elderly gentleman who had made the
effort to travel a good distance simply to ask him a question. I found his action to be offensive – far from harmless.
I don’t think UG has any doctrine that says he
should act in a certain way, whether that is harmless or free from anger.
That’s precisely my point, and the reason I said U.G. Krishnamurti was a
dead-ender. He makes no claim to be either happy or harmless, nor is he happy and harmless, so I saw no point at all in
following him or trying to emulate him because I have always been interested in the possibility of living with my fellow
human beings in peace and harmony.
You certainly don’t have to condone his behaviour.
I neither condone nor condemn his behaviour – despite his reports of what
he thinks and feels, he is simply a fellow human being who has landed in some sort of weird psychological state. And nor
do I condone nor condemn those who follow him – it is but a testimony to the desperate lengths that many people go to
in their search for the meaning of life. I know this well, because I have literally sat at the feet of a few shamans and
snake-oil sellers before I became an actualist.
Harmlessness; what is the actualist definition of
harmlessness?
How about – ‘Effortlessly living with one’s fellow human beings in
utter peace and harmony’. That’s the challenge I set myself and I started with proving that it was possible to do
this with one person and then I worked on the other issues that prevented me from living in utter peace and harmony with
all of my fellow human beings.
Do you eat meat and therefore kill life to sustain
your own? Do you unsuspectingly step on insects or do you unintentionally hurt someone?
I was a vegetarian in my spiritual years – it was the ‘done thing’ to
do – but when I stopped believing in spiritualism I stopped believing in vegetarianism. It then became obvious to me
that the most conspicuous carnage that has occurred and is still occurring on this planet is the carnage that is wrought
by human beings on other human beings as well as that which human beings inflict upon themselves. I then set my sights
higher than conforming to righteous dietary ethics and focussed my attention on the more pertinent issue – stopping
being antagonistic towards my fellow human beings.
Will you kill or injure to defend your life and or
property?
Life, yes, property no – I have insurance that covers what few goods I
have.
Do you live under the law that protects you at the
point of a gun?
If you mean: are the police in this town armed – yes, they are. Such is the
human condition that without them this ‘peaceful’ part of the planet would rapidly devolve into barbarianism and
anarchy.
What is the actualist definition of harmlessness?
There is no ‘actualist definition’ of harmlessness other than what
the word means.
Harmless – Free from guilt; innocent. Now
rare or obs. Doing or causing no harm; inoffensive, innocuous. Oxford
Dictionary
You will notice in the definition I gave you above, I simply re-adjusted the
dictionary definition of harmlessness to mean ‘living with one’s fellow human beings in utter peace and harmony’
so as to give it a more down-to-earth meaning and to make it more specifically relevant to what I can practically do to
bring an end to human malice and sorrow.
Is this possible?
Yes – despite the overwhelming conviction that peace on earth between human
beings is but an impossible dream, being harmless and living in peace with one’s fellow human being can be an
actuality.
Where do you draw the line?
The expression ‘the buck stops here’ comes to mind. Or ‘somebody has to
be the second and the third and so on’. Or ‘why not me?’ As you can see, I didn’t draw a line, I just moved the
pointer to me.
Presently one may not be displaying anger or
harmfulness but what happens tomorrow one can never know unless one lives in a bubble.
While not yet actually free of the human condition, I am virtually – as in
almost completely – free of malice and sorrow. As such, I don’t wonder what will happen tomorrow for the simple
reason that I cannot remember the last time I felt angry, felt resentful, felt aggrieved, felt annoyed etc. Why should
tomorrow be any different? I am not hiding from the world, I don’t live in a bubble, I am not self-deluded – I am a
down-to-earther, living in the world-as-it-is, with people as-they-are
Richard, in all his self-aggrandizing glory, states
that today was a perfect day and tomorrow will be as well. As to why one would make such a statement, I wouldn’t know
unless one were trying to sell something, actualism and his method, in order to perhaps give his best shot at his stated
altruistic goal of world peace, through his method.
There is another explanation of course and I don’t know whether it has
occurred to you.
He could simply be stating a fact.

I never found anything healthy about cynicism. From what I remember, it’s
not only a lead weight on one’s shoulders, it’s like walking around immersed in a grey fog of one’s own making.
<snip>
One thing about the spiritual path that did not sit well with me, apart from
feeling increasingly isolated and dissociated from the world of people, things and events, was the fundamental cynicism
that underpins all spiritual belief – that the human experience is one of essential suffering. Because of this
spiritual cynicism about life on earth meeting Richard, hearing of his experiences and reading his words was quite
literally a breath of fresh air.
By taking on board what he had to say, and being able to relate to what he
was saying by my own experience in a PCE, I was very soon able set off on the path to actual freedom. In doing so, I was
able to forgo my cynicism and reconnect with my naiveté, I was able to cease practicing dissociation and begin being
fascinated with being here, and I was able to begin the enthralling business of investigating all of ‘my’ beliefs
and passions that make ‘me’ an inseparable constituent of the human condition of malice and sorrow. Cynicism is the
pits. It’s so delicious to have abandoned cynicism, to get in touch with my naiveté and devote myself fully to the
business of becoming free from malice and sorrow. Peter to Gary 22.7.2002
I have no disagreements on this issue of cynicism as
a dead end or the pits and in addition, self destructive. None.
That’s good to hear as cynicism is a debilitating feeling that afflicts so
many people.
I already have my interactions with AF to thank for
curing me of sarcasm and cynicism. Maybe I was ready to lose it but you all exposed it enough for me to see its
deleterious effects and enable me to remove it. And for that, I thank you.
It’s essential to have a good clear-eyed look at how feelings spoil not
only your own happiness but also to be attentive as to how your feelings impact on others. Cynicism tends to be an inner
affliction spoiling one’s happiness whereas sarcasm is an outward expression – something that one inflicts on
another person, something that impacts on their happiness.
Cynical – distrustful or incredulous of human goodness and
sincerity; sneering. Oxford Dictionary
Sarcasm – A bitter or wounding expression or remark, a taunt, esp.
one ironically worded. Oxford Dictionary
As an actualist, I always put the aim to be harmless towards my fellow human
beings first and my aim for happiness second, because it is impossible for me be happy unless I am harmless. For anyone
who is sincere about peace on earth it is essential to put becoming harmless first … and then increased happiness
invariably follows.
In the case in point, if one stops being sarcastic, as in expressing bitter
or wounding remarks to others, then one has more chance of being happy … which in turn means that one has less reason
to feel cynical …which in turn means one is less prone to be sarcastic and so on … until both cynicism and sarcasm
eventually disappear as if by magic.
It’s a fascinating business to see, and experientially understand, how
feelings are interlinked, how they produce an endless cycle of ups and downs, how there is a continuous tendency to
wound and then feel wounded, how there is a seesaw sequence of excitement and boredom … and so on.

Just as a bit of an aside, but it something that has just come to mind. I
always put harmless before happy in my priorities because I realized quite early on that it is impossible to be happy
unless one is harmless. The realization that twigged me to this was when I finally stopped wanting Vineeto to change and
I finally stopped doing battle with her – trying to get ‘my’ own way. In hindsight, putting being harmless before
being happy was the beginning of altruism – the only passion capable of countering the innate narcissistic craving.
The other issue about putting becoming harmless first is that fear and
aggression are simply opposite sides of the same coin. The survival instincts are essentially attack and defence
mechanisms – stand and fight or cut and run – or at their most basic in the animal world – ‘what can I eat ...
what can eat me’. It is my experience that the way to eliminate fear is not to try to become fearless but to
concentrate on becoming harmless. By progressively eliminating aggression towards others you take the very wind out of
fear thereby simultaneously progressively eliminating fear of others as well.
It takes extraordinary naiveté to do this and it is only possible if you
have experienced the actually occurring benevolence that is the very nature of this astounding universe we humans live
in. This direct experience of ‘self’-less purity and perfection is ultimately the beacon that will guide you. The
words on the AF web-site, the journals and the screen saver are but a proposition – the proof of the pudding is
one’s own PCE and this ‘self’-less experience then becomes one’s own touchstone. Provided ‘you’ don’t
personally covert the experience as ‘my’ precious experience or crave it as an escape route for ‘me’ to get out
of being here in the world as-it-is, you will merrily go about your business of instigating, then co-operating and
finally agreeing to ‘my’ demise.

If I read you right, you seem to be discovering that these feelings are what
initially prevents one from ‘jumping in’ to actualism and doing what is necessary in order to become happy
and harmless. This business of actualism is the challenge of a lifetime and to be a pioneer in the business is utterly
thrilling.
Hmm. I think your reading depends on thinking that I
was talking about the ‘self-loathing’ relating to feeling guilt and shame – which is not as big of a problem for
me – since I gave up belief in ‘free-will’ years ago.
Feelings of guilt and shame arise from the morals and ethics that every human
being is invariably inculcated with during our childhood years. Maybe you could expand on your ‘belief in
free-will’ as I don’t quite understand the connection with feeling guilt and shame.
I’m pretty much past that particular gate – and
I’ve been benefiting from the amorality of actualism for quite a while.
As actualism is not a belief system, a teaching or a philosophy, actualism
cannot of itself be moral, immoral or amoral.
Actualism is a process that only starts to operate when someone devotes his
or her life to the task of becoming happy and harmless. In the process of becoming happy and harmless, it is par for the
course that the societal morals and ethics will be exposed as being not only contradictory and hypocritical but also
unliveable and unworkable. As one becomes more happy and more harmless, these ‘tried and failed’ morals and ethics
fall by the wayside in favour of common sense and consideration for one’s fellow human beings regardless of who they
think and feel themselves to be.
To put it simply, the unliveable morals and unworkable ethics designed to
curb human malice and sorrow become utterly redundant when replaced by the sincerity, naiveté and pure intent required
to become actually happy and actually harmless.
The biggie for me now is the down and dirty
aggression, rage, fear – all those instincts we try to repress and cover over with good feelings. The other major
investigation is catching the tender emotions in action just as they arise and to see how they ‘hurt’ – which is
much more subtle.
Yes. This was the first major concern for me as well – and hence the first
area of investigation as well. I do find it somewhat bewildering that so few people have been interested in taking up
the challenge of becoming harmless. For me it was such an obvious thing – something I always put first because
happiness follows from it. You can’t have one without the other, in fact. It seems that despite all the ‘stop making
war’ noises, despite all the ‘good’ and ‘loving’ people in the world, only a small percentage of those who
have come across actualism are interested enough in peace on earth to stop being angry, to stop making war with their
partners, to stop hurting others, to stop blaming others, to stop beating themselves up, to stop riling against having
to be here, and so on.
The way I see it, tackling aggression must be the first biggie for any
actualist – it has to be numero uno. And the hardest thing for many who have trod the spiritual path is to firstly
acknowledge that they do get angry, let alone allow themselves to fully feel the feelings.
It’s good to remember that actualism is not about not feeling. The
actualism process is specifically designed to get one in touch with the full range of one’s feelings for the first
time in one’s life, and this is impossible if repression and denial are allowed to rule the roost.

For me the clue was in my aim to be happy and harmless . Even in my
spiritual days I wouldn’t have described myself as unhappy. Probably that I was reasonably happy, particularly when
things were going well. But what I had to admit, almost force myself to admit, was that I was not harmless.
Well-meaning, yes, but when push came to shove, or when things weren’t going my way – certainly not harmless. My
inability to live with a woman in peace and harmony was ample testimony to this fact. When I read Richard’s journal
for the first time it was the first chapters on ‘living together’, ‘sex’ and ‘gender’ that pricked up my
ears. It was to prove to be my test of fire. <snip>
Actualism is the practical implementation of scientifically and historically
proven facts – a radical departure from the myth of spiritual celibacy, transcendence and ‘watching’. It is
implementation, not avoidance. It is involvement, not detachment. It is change and action, not acceptance and
procrastination. It is sensible, not silly.
So, to be reasonably happy is relatively easy. To be totally harmless – to
have no instinctual fear or aggression – to be actually free of malice and sorrow is an evolutionary leap. The stakes
are high in this game ... but so are the rewards.
I am not at all discouraging you from ‘enjoy(ing)
whatever moments I am able to, of sensate experiencing’ – quite the contrary. What I am pointing to is a
way of having more of those moments and then stringing more of them together and one day being able to live that way 24
hrs. a day every day – in the world as-it-is with people as-they-are.
I remember this being a wonderful moment when I finally realized I was
becoming free of having a social conscience where I was continually beholden to others’ moral and ethical judgements.
It is obvious, in hindsight, that this only happened with the knowledge and experience that I was becoming harmless to
others around me and thus realized, with confidence and surety, that their assessments were biased and false.
It is exciting to see that one is becoming harmless
to the others around one. My partner reiterated to me recently that she feels I have become much more good natured and
easy going lately, much easier to be around. I ascribe this change to my investigations into ‘me’ using the
actualism method of becoming happy and harmless.
Yes, the only way to be happy is to be harmless. I went through many years
where I adopted a spiritual ‘holier than thou’ identity in which case it is always someone else who was evil or
ignorant or responsible for my sorrow or anger. I was in total denial of my own manipulative feelings and actions, my
own anger and resentment and my own part in conflicts and disagreements. It was only when I started to take notice of
the occasional bleed-throughs of malice that I was forced to do something about it. For me being able to live peacefully
and harmoniously with my fellow human beings is the most powerful motivation in taking on actualism and in seeing the
process through to the end.
Being totally ‘self’-less is the only authentic way to be unselfish.
I remember this being a wonderful moment when I finally realized I was
becoming free of having a social conscience where I was continually beholden to others’ moral and ethical judgements.
It is obvious, in hindsight, that this only happened with the knowledge and experience that I was becoming harmless to
others around me and thus realized, with confidence and surety, that their assessments were biased and false.
It is exciting to see that one is becoming harmless
to the others around one. My partner reiterated to me recently that she feels I have become much more good natured and
easy going lately, much easier to be around. I ascribe this change to my investigations into ‘me’ using the
actualism method of becoming happy and harmless.
Yes, the only way to be happy is to be harmless. I went through many years
where I adopted a spiritual ‘holier than thou’ identity in which case it is always someone else who was evil or
ignorant or responsible for my sorrow or anger. I was in total denial of my own manipulative feelings and actions, my
own anger and resentment and my own part in conflicts and disagreements. It was only when I started to take notice of
the occasional bleed-throughs of malice that I was forced to do something about it. For me being able to live peacefully
and harmoniously with my fellow human beings is the most powerful motivation in taking on actualism and in seeing the
process through to the end.
Being totally ‘self’-less is the only authentic way to be unselfish.

It’s interesting to dig around and to see the real-world views on
aggression and to see what the psychiatrists and sociologists, theoretical biologists and evolutionary biologists, are
making of instinctual aggressiveness. The spiritual search is based on the notion that ‘you can’t change human
nature’, hence the search for one’s divine (non-human) nature or true Self – and the same premise operates in the
real-world, hence the continual need to be ever on-guard, lest one runs amok.
What I found was that the harmless part of wanting to be happy and harmless
was the key in pushing myself beyond what I considered safe limits – beyond the normal definition of aggressiveness
into questioning the need for ‘me’ to be assertive in order for ‘me’ to survive, to get what ‘I’ wanted, to
get ‘my’ way in every situation. In order to move into these areas of ‘self’-examination it is clear that one
needs to firstly investigate and abandon the moral and ethical restraints that cause the welling-up of feelings of shame
and guilt simply for having felt these savage passions in the first place. Guilt and shame are crippling and
debilitating feelings, an integral part of one’s instilled social identity.
To go beyond these feelings is a daring action and a clue is to see one’s
inner investigation as an investigation of the Human Condition in operation in one’s own psyche. To see the
instinctual passions as no fault of yours; you are not bad or evil for thinking these thoughts, for having these
feelings, for being blindly driven to want to act this way. Keep your hands in your pockets, neither expressing nor
repressing the passions, but observing them in action inside – knowing that what is going on is only in your head and
your heart.
What fascinating explorations – to see how ‘I’ operate and to actually
feel ‘me’ in action. This seeing, this investigation, is the very ending of ‘me’ for all the mystique, mystery,
cunningness and deviousness is exposed to the light of sensible understanding.
There is an enormous dare in being here, in the world as-it-is with people
as-they-are – free of the instinctual passions, held to be necessary in order to survive, and free of the crutch of
having ‘God by one’s side’ for protection.

I am concerned about that. That is one among many
other reasons that I did not correspond with you much. I am *not sure* but these shock waves could cause damage to other
people.
Bit of a double twist here. I understand that you do not correspond with me
much because of the damage it could cause ‘you’. I assume that others are on this list because they want to be, and
will have their own interpretations. The wonderful thing about this mailing lists is there is always the delete button,
the unsubscribe option or the ‘don’t bother to read’ option, or the ‘just skim over’ option ... I do write
knowing others will read what I write, but I do write to you.
You are probably at such an advanced stage that one
‘bad’ thought from you could cause that. To some extent, I guess we all do that. Me too.
Again, this is all a speculation on my part but it is important for me so I
thought I will say it.
I would not have used the term advanced as it can imply progress towards
attaining something for oneself. As you know, the path to Actual Freedom is progression towards self-immolation – a
process of investigation and discovery which results in diluting, diminishing, weakening, reducing, withering and
eventual total elimination of both the psychological and psychological parasitical entity that dwells within this flesh
and blood body.
As for my one ‘bad’ thought causing damage to others – as I’ve
repeatedly said my aim is to be both happy and harmless which is why I went to the trouble of explaining what I
did in my last post. And which is why I then went on to explain the way that it is possible to eliminate frustration,
anger, violence, retribution, peevedness, annoyance, etc. by digging down inside oneself and discovering their roots.

To comment on your not caring for the term harmless, as you indicated to
Vineeto –
And as for the term harmless, I don’t care for the
implications of powerlessness that I hear in this word. Reminds me of an image of an impotent over-the-hill codger.
The manifestations of power in the ‘real’ world are obvious to most –
money, political power, sexual power, emotionally-wielded power, physically-wielded power.
In the spiritual world there is an ultimate power and that power is God –
in whatever manifestation one believes in. Just a reminder for those who have trouble with words and meanings –
‘God:
- (capitalised): the supreme or ultimate reality.
(a): the Being perfect in power, wisdom, and goodness who is worshipped as creator and ruler of the universe,
(b) the incorporeal divine Principle ruling over all as eternal Spirit: infinite Mind.
- a being or object believed to have more than natural attributes and powers and to require human worship;
specifically one controlling a particular aspect or part of reality.
- a person or thing of supreme value
- a powerful ruler’ – Webster’s Dictionary.
So one could clearly say that to be God is the ultimate power in the spirit-ual
world. To be ‘at One with God’ is a pretty good achievement as well, as the distinction between you and God is
tantalisingly vague.
The drive to Enlightenment – to become a God-man – is clearly a drive to
power. What more power can one have as a human than to be a God-man? What more authority than to be treated as a God by
one’s fellow human beings? In the East, achieving Enlightenment is to reach the pinnacle of power and authority.
My personal observations from my spiritual days throw some more light on this
fascinating subject –
... ‘The room was completed and he moved in for a week, and then went back
to his old bedroom. I was then offered a job overseeing the building developments in the ashram, with the lure of
becoming a Resident – free food, rent paid and other appropriate privileges of rank. I worked closely with the leaders
of the ashram, sometimes travelling to Bombay on business, but I became increasingly uncomfortable with the level of
politicking and scheming – to put it plainly, power-tripping and ingratiating behaviour. I guess I thought things just
‘happened’ around Rajneesh, but to see this cesspool of power, plotting and intrigue below the surface reminded me
of the failure of the Ranch. It came to a head at one particular meeting when suddenly I could see the whole hidden
agenda operating beneath the surface. It became glaringly obvious: here was power and corruption again, but this time
done by highly skilled ‘operators’, not amateurs. Whether the motive be Good or Evil, Right or Wrong, I simply saw
power as power over someone else. And, of course, it had the authority of Rajneesh behind it, which was curious given
that he had denied being the power and authority behind the goings-on at the Ranch.’ Peter’s
Journal, Spiritual Search
There is no power in the actual world – it exists only in the alien entity
within humans that desperately fears and fights, seeking psychic or physical power over others, firstly as a means of
survival, and then as the will to power and dominance. In the spiritual world one either aims for the power of God for
oneself – Enlightenment, Teacher, Healer, etc., or one surrenders one’s power to a God as a follower or disciple in
return for his love and protection. The God then becomes more powerful because he has a bigger group around him and yet
another religion is born...
Actual Freedom is the elimination of the very ‘me’ who seeks power over
others, it cuts the very root of the whole problem that has plagued Humanity for tens of thousands of years.
Then you get to be a happy and harmless ‘old codger’ like me, with a
delightful sex-life.

For me it’s not even about being harmless – as
in not hurting another. It’s about being as honest as possible with myself, and that in fact may mean not hurting
another – but it may mean that someone is ‘hurt’ also.
For me, I often see the New-Age version of ‘I want to be honest with you’
or ‘I just want to share something with you’ as nothing more than I want to give you a ‘serve’. The only person
to be honest with is yourself. If you are not honest with yourself then who are you kidding. It is your life you are
living. It is your happiness that you are concerned about. What I found was that to become free of malice and sorrow is
the only way I can be absolutely sure that I am not hurting others. They may well be offended or have whatever re-action
they have but if a good, honest search around inside reveals no malice then that is the key. To really get into
exploring feelings and emotions.

So, yes. The last time I was angry was some 2 years ago and the last time
anyone got me upset was 18 months ago. I can’t remember the last time I was sad, and even melancholy has disappeared
from my life. I actually enjoy being alive, and in the last 12 months have come to like my fellow human beings – and
not to react to them out of fear (with its partner – aggression).
After all – to be happy one needs to be harmless, to be harmless one needs
to be happy.

This process, if undertaken with a pure intent, will inevitably lead to a
state of virtual freedom. One then goes to bed in the evening knowing that one has had a perfect day, and knowing that
tomorrow, without doubt, will also be a perfect day. Unless one is willing to contemplate being happy and being
harmless, virtually free of malice and sorrow, 99% of the time – then forget the whole business. The challenge of
virtual freedom is to be the best one can be – to mimic the perfection and purity of the actual as much as one can
while remaining ‘human’ – an alien entity and not a free flesh and blood body. Then, and only then, does one have
the confidence and surety to step out of the real world and into the actual world – leaving one’s ‘self’ behind.
Now I’m getting worried Peter ... ‘to mimic the
perfection of the actual...’ is that what it’s all about? There’s no real possibility to manifest freedom on the
planet so we have to do the next best thing; namely pretend that everything is perfect and then eventually we might
stumble on the real deal. Is this something equivalent to spiritual practice!?
A poor attempt at a bluff. This is clearly not what I am indicating, nor what
is on offer. Did you conveniently ignore the ‘then and only then’ bit as a way of avoiding –
Unless one is willing to contemplate being happy and being harmless,
virtually free of malice and sorrow, 99% of the time – then forget the whole business.
You’re obviously getting worried for your objections are getting sillier,
pettier and more frantic the further this post goes. You even manage to shoot yourself in the foot with this argument by
belittling the spiritual practices that you have previously been busily defending in this post. May I suggest a little
more careful aim in the future?
It’s a tough business defending the indefensible, for any belief, by its
very nature, is ultimately indefensible. No wonder the final fall back position is that the Truth cannot be put into
words or it cannot be explained – for such is the nature of fervent belief and blind faith, both are indeed beyond
comprehension, sensibility and sanity.
And how can we know that the next day and the day
after will be perfect even when we’ve left ‘the self’ behind? It might in fact be a total disaster and we might
become extremely depressed or whatever. Is the ultimate state really to be perfectly happy all the time?
You can’t know until you have experienced the perfection and purity of the
actual world in a pure consciousness experience. If you have already and can remember it then you and I both know that
your question is yet another furphy. But if you steadfastly believe that human existence is meant to be a suffering
existence then you will forever cut yourself off from finding out.
The key to the ultimate ‘self’-less sate of purity and perfection is to
maintain an equal focus on the ‘harmless’ bit of becoming happy and harmless, for one can never be happy unless one
is harmless. This harmlessness is an unconditional harmlessness in the world as-it-is, with people as-they-are – not
hiding away in some spiritual community of like-believers, run on strict moral and ethical codes in order to keep a lid
on undesirable behaviour. Actual harmlessness is not an ideal, as in pacifism, but comes from having no identity or
person ‘inside’ who can feel offended, feel attacked, who is constantly and fearfully on-guard and ever-ready to
defend or attack.
There is no malice and sorrow in the actual world.
But maybe you’re talking about the foundation for
happiness first and foremost and not the actual experience. It would be very unrealistic, I think, to imagine perfection
as constant sensatory bliss, if that’s the case then I surely see the need for mimicking life instead of actually
living it. This could potentially be the ultimate delusion, a way to create a fairytale and not living in any world
other than one’s own fantasy and imagination.
As I said, unless one is willing to contemplate being happy and being
harmless, virtually free of malice and sorrow, 99% of the time – then forget the whole business. From your objections
to my statement it is obvious that you find it impossible to contemplate that you, as-you-are, would be willing to
sacrifice enough of your ‘self’ to even get to this state.
Do you think that a change as radical as becoming actually happy and harmless
happens by some blinding flash of light, that it is an effortless achievement that requires that you do nothing? Even on
the spiritual path those who have success build a foundation of spiritual experiences and assiduously practice
transcendence. The same applies for any achievement or goal in the real world.
For anyone interested in becoming actually free of malice and sorrow, it is
obvious that unless one is willing to contemplate being happy and being harmless, virtually free of malice and sorrow,
99% of the time – then forget the whole business.
I can contemplate being harmless but not happy 99%
of the time, my view is more that we’re basically the same person (after the breakthrough) but with different
priorities and greater confidence in our ability to live a sane and harmless life. Just as enlightened teachers can’t
be perfect as they claim neither can one who reaches the ‘self-less state’ be perfect. There’s always going to
remain some conditioning and sense of identity. The third way seems to be a powerful alternative to spirituality (now
I’m bringing in spirituality again, sorry) and much more down to earth, but I don’t think it’s leading to
perfection. It can help (along with other forces) to make this world a better one but I’ve stopped believing in ONE
way that can save us.
It sounds to me that you are saying you have stopped believing that peace on
earth is possible for No. 10, in this lifetime. I find it useful to keep this conversation personal and pointed, lest we
get off the rails. Our topic is peace on earth and you do seem to agree that the only person you can change is you, you
are not interested in spiritual freedom, so we are talking about peace on earth, for you, in this lifetime.
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