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Richard’s Correspondence On Mailing List ‘D’ with Correspondent No. 4
Continued from Mailing List ‘AF’: No. 60 Re: AF website mirror RESPONDENT: The most striking aspect of this for me is the incredible lack of perspective and lack of generosity that Richard shows in regard to No. 1’s intentions. The idea that someone who earns plenty of money at Microsoft would be interested in parasitically profiting from the AF Trust’s work is verging on crazy. Everyone else seemed to understand that No. 1 was trying to do people a favour (albeit in a misguided way, for reasons Richard has explained). But that Richard write to (and of) No. 1 as if he were a parasite and a crass opportunist rather than a well-meaning person is just pretty ugly from where I stand. (And I’m not ‘feminine’). CO-RESPONDENT: Do you think it is possible that Richard was just speaking frankly which has been interpreted as harsh? RESPONDENT: No, it’s easy enough to speak frankly without being harsh. In any case, it’s not the overt ‘harshness’ that I had in mind. It’s what the harshness (apparently) proceeds from: a lack of perspective and generosity / magnanimity with respect to No. 1’s intentions. Why all this controversy? It seems obvious to everyone else that No. 1 was trying to do people a simple favour, but his action is portrayed as crass opportunism and parasitism instead. I find that ungenerous and indecent. It would have been quite easy to request the mirror to be taken down, for all the valid reasons given, without going there. (Everyone agrees that the reasons are valid). People can bend over backwards to explain Richard’s ungracious attitude toward his fellow human being, as they always do; that’s their business; I just don’t see it as something to like or admire or aspire to ... more a case of needing to maintain interest in the PCE/AF condition despite how Richard manifests it in relation to others. RICHARD: G’day No. 4, It occurred to me to pop in and let you know how fascinating it is to read
your ... um ... non-harsh words about the harshness which your ‘pictures-not-pixels’ perception By which I mean your speaking-frankly-without-being-harsh words such as: just pretty ugly; incredible lack of perspective; indecent; lack of generosity; ungracious attitude; lack of perspective; ungenerous; lack of magnanimity; verging on crazy; and so on. I am somewhat curious as to just what words you would use if you ever were to begin speaking harshly about
the harshness which your ‘pictures-not-pixels’ perception After all, they would have to be uglier words than ugly is, for just one instance, in order to be harsh-not-frank words ... and that is quite a low bar, which you have set for yourself, to get under. Ah, well ... better you than me, eh? Regards, Richard.
Re: Richard RESPONDENT No. 5: Richard, If the door to the human condition vanished behind you, why are you still here grovelling in the dirt box with it? RESPONDENT: As bizarre and unlikely as it seems sometimes – and I say this without irony – maybe he really does care about and actually like us. Not the stuff that we value and enjoy about ourselves and each other, and not all the stuff that we (as identities) are immersed in ... but what we would/ could be (and actually are) – without all the stuff that fucks us up. You know I also find his way of going about it bizarre and ineffective. It’s tempting at times to write him off as a madman, or one in whom there’s a mixture of great intelligence and insidious brokenness. RICHARD: G’day No. 4, I will resist the (cheeky) temptation to blandly enquire just what bizarre and ineffective way that might be, to which you refer, as follow-up emails to this one of yours have made it evident to most that my posts are being censored. This madman (to use your frank-not-harsh word) does have a method to his madness (to use a cliché), in this instance, which he is only too happy to elucidate ... provided this email survives the heavy hand of censorship, of course. (The incongruity of the discoverer of an actual freedom from the human condition being censored, on the only active actual freedom discussion list in the world, has not escaped me). And, as it relates to the integrity of The Actual Freedom Trust web site (which will remain the only
guaranteed-to-be-accurate suppository For over nine years now a certain middle-aged codger (whose family name will not appear here lest this email
be censored for that hypocritical reason), sitting hunched before a computer with dogs for company and an array of sock-puppet
aliases, has cyber-stalked the discoverer of an actual freedom from the human condition, in various forums where his discovery is
discussed, in an ongoing attempt to vilify/ discredit same in any way possible no matter how slight (as evidenced, for instance,
in the recent howler of the week award) ... to the point it amounts to an obsession, at the very least, if not a persecution As reasoned argument with such a vilifier/ discreditor is a fruitless method – devolving very quickly into
a slanging match in which a non-vilifier simply cannot compete That hypocritical censoring of my posts, by this vilifier/ discreditor, quite serendipitously revealed up-front a marked double-standard (which is in keeping with that absence of integrity) inasmuch the justification given was specifically about written permission. Vis.:
Yet only six months ago (17 Nov 2008) the hypocritical vilifier/ discreditor did exactly that: they made public on this forum (just as they have done on various occasions before on other forums via other sock-puppets) a name for which they did not have, nor ever have had, written permission to disclose. But it gets far worse than mere double-standards, of course, for this is what they wrote after making that name public (edited for space):
Here we have a known vilifier/ discreditor assuring everyone that they know better than Richard (not to mention the directors protecting his safety) as to what exactly is sensible to ensure his continued survival. Just think about the implications and ramifications of that, for a moment, given the evidence of history in regards assassinations of pioneers/ trail-blazers/ whistle-blowers/ leaders and the such-like.
The list could go on and on, but that should be sufficient for the nonce. Does everybody reading this now see how vital it is that the integrity of The Actual Freedom Trust web site remain inviolate? And I ask this question because, once I am dead and gone, The Actual Freedom Trust web site, with its
(legally) registered imprimatur, will remain the only guaranteed-to-be-accurate suppository * No. 4, I have a proposition to put to you: how about we meet, personally, face-to-face for an easy chat at some mutually suitable and neutral location? You have mentioned, previously, how you live only a couple of hundred kilometres to the south of here, where I currently reside, so getting there incurs no travel problems for me (I have a lower back condition which prohibits extensive travel). If you are agreeable perhaps you might know of a café somewhere local – one with an outside terrace, preferably, due to the bizzaro-world regulations about tobacco usage – as I have neither the interest nor need to know your street address. Let me know publicly if you agree ... then the details of where and when and how can take place privately. If nothing else it is an opportunity for you to find out if I really am a prick. Regards, Richard. P.S: I will also take this opportunity to ask the owner of this list (not the moderators for it appears one of them is corrupt) to delete every post/ every instance where that name appears.
Re: Richard RESPONDENT: Thanks for your offer, Richard. I accept it with pleasure. I’ll be a moving target in the near/ medium term, but will be up in Lismore in November (and nearby for a while thereafter) ... so if it’s suitable for you at the time, I’d be happy to meet you in an open-air cafe of your choice (or just have a stroll) anywhere around Lismore / Byron / Lennox Head, etc. (We can arrange the details privately [xauxaux@ ... deleted] as you suggested). As regards being a prick, I think that one has already been laid to rest in my mind. It has been interesting to observe, in the recent thread about No. 1’s mirror site, how No. 2 and No. 7 both had a similar first impression to mine, but did not allow the affective reaction to eclipse their reason; and as it turned out, the things that offended me (or caused me to take offence by proxy, as it were) amounted to nothing. I can willingly concede that there would have been numerous instances of that in the past, where the fault was mine, and I was too pig-headed to see it. (No doubt causing my mate No. 30[AF-list] much frustration) ;-) Having seen a good practical demonstration of how ‘the devil is not in the details’ can lead one astray, I hope to learn from it in future. Also, since the other night when I wrote to you about being ‘friendly’, I’ve done some serious re-thinking more about what it actually means to be friendly, and it’s clear that I’m the one who has an ‘incredible lack of perspective’ in that regard. I still think/ hope/ imagine that it’s possible to have both actual caring / genuine friendliness without it coming across as an absence of conventional friendliness. In fact, I can even see that you are like that ... but you sometimes make people work hard to see it that way (or, shall we say, harder than I’m accustomed to working). But when there’s a conflict between seeming nice, being conventionally friendly, not hurting feelings on the one hand, and being genuinely helpful to people on the other, there should be no contest. Regarding your privacy and safety, I certainly understand/ respect your position. Regarding a certain ‘middle aged codger (...) sitting hunched before a computer’, I’ll withhold judgement, on account of the glass house I live in. But I do hope that the person behind [whatever] public image(s) can ultimately benefit from all this, and not feel too alienated and resentful to take a fresh look at things. You asked: ‘Does everybody reading this now see how vital it is that the integrity of The Actual Freedom Trust web site remain inviolate?’ Yes, unreservedly. Cheers, ... RICHARD: G’day No. 4, Thank you for your detailed response. Lismore in November will be just fine by me (I moved out of Byron Bay some years ago). (see I will send you an email, privately, sometime soon so that you will have my email address in case you want to make other arrangements as circumstances change. As for me, being retired and on a pension means pretty well any time is okay. As for your comments about ‘friendly’ and your re-thinking: what I have noticed is a misunderstanding of the way I use the word benevolence. For instance:
Even when I am being firm, unrelenting, and so forth, I never cease wishing well (because I simply cannot switch it off). In real world terms, then, it is simply not possible to be friendly/ kindly in all situations ... there are occasions where one needs to be firm. Sometimes even stern. Regarding withholding judgement ... of course (and not just because of glass houses) as there are extenuating circumstances. Now, obviously I posses confidential information which I will never, ever be revealing as it is just not my style (I do indeed like my fellow human no matter what mischief they get up to). What I can freely do, however, is point you to Message No. 3746 (second/ third paragraph) As for not feeling too alienated/ resentful and taking a fresh look at things: I will finish with the (edited) essence of the very first email the person (presumably) behind whatever public image(s) ever wrote to me:
Who knows ... that initial inspiration/ enthusiasm may not be forever lost but just buried. Regards, Richard.
Re: Different Way Of Being RICHARD: (...) The virtual freedom being referred to in ‘Richard’s Journal’ is, of course, the full-blown experiencing of it: an out-from-being-under-control and, thus, different way of being nowadays known as an ongoing excellence experience. (This ongoing excellence experience is what the methodological aspect of a virtual freedom – a persistent and diligent application of the actualism method – can morph into whenever that current-time awareness method has been applied to a sufficiency for that to occur/ have happen). This penultimate out-from-under-control/ different-way-of-being is barely distinguishable from a pure consciousness experience. (It was from this ongoing excellence experiencing that pure consciousness experiences occurred on a near-daily basis – sometimes two-three times a day – for the identity inhabiting this flesh and blood body all those years ago). RESPONDENT: If I had read about this at age 19, I would have been in, boots and all. Although at the time I didn’t carefully distinguish between PCEs, ‘excellence experiences’ and various other different-ways-of-being, I did take risks and go to considerable lengths to seek out these experiences. I knew (and of course am still convinced of it) this world could be experienced as a magical place, if only the state of mind-body (as I saw it then) were receptive to it. (That for me was always the prime motivation for drug use – as opposed to merely ‘getting out of it’ – hence the interest in psychedelics). Now with the approach of early middle-age I realise how relatively timid I’ve become ... clinging to human sorrow and its soothing / beautiful compensatory feelings, instead of trying all-out for something better. I’m inspired to give this another try. If I can approach it with the same intensity and optimism that I had back then, this time armed with the information/ knowledge/ sensibility that makes it actually viable, who knows? I’m willing to find out. RICHARD: For what it is worth, then, somebody of late middle-age, known to me personally, added another aspect to virtual freedom last year via an ongoing pure consciousness experience of 4 months and 28 days duration. (Prior to that the longest known so far had been one of 3 weeks duration). Regards, Richard.
Re: Different Way Of Being RICHARD: For what it is worth, then, somebody of late middle-age, known to me personally, added another aspect to virtual freedom last year via an ongoing pure consciousness experience of 4 months and 28 days duration. RESPONDENT: Wow! That’s great news for the rest of us too: the more these things happen, the less likely it is that the sustained PCE / AF has anything to do with genetic predisposition. That’s excellent. Even if the final mutation doesn’t happen, it’d be a pretty incredible life alternating between excellence and purity. (‘Way ahead of ordinary human expectation’ is a fair assessment). If you can speak on this person’s behalf, did that PCE end of its own accord, or was there a known trigger event that caused the instinctual passions to reassert themselves? Cheers, ... RICHARD: G’day No. 4, I have permission to speak on this person’s behalf – she features in the DVD video-shoot entitled ‘A Pure Consciousness Experience’ – on the understanding that no name or any other such details are divulged. Yes, there was a known trigger event: she was in a Japanese restaurant watching the waiter whilst he was cooking, quite taken by the fact he was so much in his own world, when a comment was made to her, which was incorrect, but she noticed that there seemed to be ‘something’ (as in slight reaction) in her response. It was from that moment she knew that something had changed, as it was the first sign of any emotion, and later in the day whilst watching a very violent movie she experienced fear. I am pleased you experience this sustained PCE as great news (for it certainly is that in itself in regards what is humanly possible) as that ‘genetic predisposition’ issue would probably be quite something to be well rid of, eh? Regards, Richard.
Re: Richard RICHARD (to Respondent No. 4): (...) the only guaranteed-to-be-accurate suppository of authentic
reports/ descriptions/ explanations of an actual freedom from the human condition. RICHARD: I haven’t had such a good laugh in quite a while. Vis.:
Thus the above section reads something like this (for example):
So much for ... um ... choosing my words very carefully, eh? (Although it does lend a whole new connotation to the word ‘osmosis’ What the word should have been, of course, is repository. Vis.:
Oh, well ... c’est la vie, I guess. Regards, Richard.
Re: The Floating Convivium Project RICHARD: As the ship (the MS Actualis) will serve as a residence as well as a venue, with the potential to travel virtually anywhere in the world if need be, it was apposite to call it ‘The Floating Convivium Project’ (from the Latin for ‘feast’ as in the enjoyment of jovial banquets and good company; the quality of being convivial; the relishing of festivity and so on). There is more to both an actual and a virtual freedom from the human condition than nuclear couples living in separate homes; the overall aim is to provide the genesis of peoples living peacefully and harmoniously together on a community-wide basis. I just happen to particularly like the boating life-style. RESPONDENT No. 6: Thank you Richard and also Tom, Peter and other associates in the project. It amazes me to learn that in past few weeks I have had thought of such a setting (as I still indulge in such fancy dreams, hence my suggestions on an actualist convention as well). This sounds better than best. RICHARD: G’day No. 6, Yes, I noticed you first mentioned an actualist convention back in October –
although you were more inclined towards a song, a dance and a word with the master debater As for indulging in fancy dreams: I reached back into those of my youth for this one – tropical isles,
turquoise lagoons, coral sands, swaying palms and all the rest And speaking of youthful dreams it is appropriate to mention how, around the time of puberty onwards, adolescents become increasingly serious and childhood fun gives way to societally- inculcated obligations and responsibility. As these are embedded into an instinctually affective programme (I have seen many a frisky lamb turn into a sedate sheep, and frolicsome calves into sombre cattle, as maturity takes its toll) they turn into having the appearance of being innate ... when they are not. Life here in this actual world – the world of sensuous delight – is akin to being a child again but with
the undeniable advantage of adult sensibilities; when the occasion calls for it I can adopt a suitably solemn expression, nod
sagely as appropriate, and get away with being just a big kid having a ball in the otherwise grim and glum land of the grown-ups;
indeed, I can even tell them how much fun I am having – that I am just a big kid – and yet they are so serious they assume me
to be making some kind of obscure or idiosyncratic joke. * Anyway, what I am finally succeeding in doing is seducing some of my fellow humans – those who have not lost the plot totally – to come out and play, now, as we are all but a missed heartbeat or two away from physical death each day again. Being retired, with more than sufficient means for the rest of my life, is nowadays to my advantage, of course, yet there is simply no reason at all why gainful employment need be anything other than fun. For instance, all my best work (back when supporting both a wife and a family) always happened when I was having the most fun; in fact I have some very blurry black and white ‘home movie’ type footage of myself, circa March 1981, which ends with ‘me’ saying: ‘Do your own thing ... but have fun; if you’re not having fun then, hell, stop doing it, something is wrong; if you’re not having fun, if you have to force yourself to go to work, if you’re unhappy, something is wrong’. Within weeks ‘he’ was carted off to a hospital emergency care unit in a catatonic state and ... and here we are today having this illuminating chat about our fancy dreams. Who else can be enticed to come out and play – to join me here in this actual world – and live life where all is fun yet where everything which needs to be done does get done (albeit playfully) because of those oh-so-vital adult sensibilities? ‘Tis yours for the asking, so to speak, as no one is stopping you but yourself; no time is the right time to make it all happen as the right time only comes about when you have it happen; it is not a case of being ready for it as being ready only occurs when you have it occur; all you get by waiting is more waiting as now is the moment where it all happens; everything which happens only ever happens now. Actuality is where more than your fancy dreams can come true – much, much more – as life itself, here, is beyond even any of your most absolutely wild fantasies. This is what is actually better than best. RESPONDENT No. 7: I appreciate this Richard... and I know that, with the little credibility I have left ... RESPONDENT: Hey, what’s all this then? Perhaps I’m misunderstanding you, but it looks like one of those times when, instead of beating yourself up for whatever’s wrong, you could pat yourself on the back for noticing it... and not feel sheepish about doing so. RESPONDENT No. 7: Thanks No. 4, but at the moment ‘I’ Love you, and I’m still crying, and my girlfriend is laughing (calling herself a ‘large vagina’), and I am really really happy that (despite the pain) somebody finally had the sense to put a stop to ‘me’... don’t know where ‘I’ heading, but it’s a lot better than where ‘I’ was at. RICHARD: G’day No. 4, I am choosing to respond to you thisaway as No. 7’s response to you is necessary for clearing up your [quote] ‘misunderstanding’ [endquote] of him. (I will just talk about him, in front of him, as if he were not there). Your response was fine – right on the ball in fact – had you been interacting with a practising actualist (for it is indeed the best way forward to pat oneself on the back for noticing it). If you were to back-track through No. 7’s posts – even of just recent times – you would find out how you are not interacting with a practicing actualist but an upstart, a challenger, instead ... albeit couched in the guise of the forum’s resident humorist. (It is quite okay to talk about him, in front of him as if he were not there, as No. 7 knows full well what he is doing; what is more, he knows that I know that he knows what he is doing). Now, whilst one can get away with quite a lot under the guise of humour – to say one’s agenda is [quote]
‘to first become actually free, and then advise Richard on what he’s doing wrong’ (8140,
11.12.09 Thereafter, whatever I wrote probably would have had the result ‘he’ desired; that I chose to say [quote]
‘Oh, look ... there’s a unicorn over there! And what No. 7 knew all along was actually non-existent – as evidenced in the world of the PCE – was none other than the love ‘he’ wanted so desperately to be there. Vis.:
No. 7, however, with his eagle eye could not help but make the connection betwixt Devika (as my de facto wife) wanting the sequel to fairy stories being the ‘and they lived happily ever after’ part and how Irene (as my de jure wife) ‘died a lonesome spinster’. And what happened next was, as they say, a matter of history: ‘his’ whole world of love started to ‘self’-destruct before our very eyes. Vis.:
As to why love was so important – nay, so vital, in fact – then look no further than this:
And therein lies the whole point of me writing about sexuality and intimacy (and having no choice but to reveal something about my wives in order to do so despite usually being so circumspect about others): the extinction of ‘being’ itself can evoke a fear so vast it best be called dread (whereas physical death usually does not). Lastly, and to explain why I can talk about him, in front of him as if he were not there, the following is quite self- explanatory:
Thus it should all play itself out as per the script ‘he’ is improvising as it happens. Regards, Richard. P.S.: Hey, No. 7 ... you can tell your laughing girlfriend that my term is [quote] ‘an enormous vagina’ Furthermore, if she is laughing joyfully this size distinction quibble matters not all; if she is laughing scornfully, however, she is missing out big-time on being precisely who she is. And, so as to not get hung up on the word (as any word like that will do), when I say ‘scornfully’ I am meaning something like this:
(By the way, your ‘an expert on ashtray intimacy’ quip is quite humorous). Continued on Direct Route: No. 2
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