Actual Freedom – The Actual Freedom Mailing List Correspondence

Richard’s Correspondence

On The Actual Freedom Mailing List

With Correspondent No. 4


September 08 1999

RESPONDENT: I write this mail only to share my thoughts and am not looking for anybody’s answers. Nice sharing thoughts anyway.

RICHARD: If I may point out? This is bosh ... a load of sannyas bunkum. This is not sharing ... sharing is interacting with, taking part in, joining in with, engaging in, playing a part in, contributing to, being associated with, being involved in, having a hand in, having something to do with, partaking in and so on and so on. What you present is a one-way monologue ... you say your piece and then stifle any response whatsoever with your last line. Speaking personally, when I write I unreservedly invite response from my fellow human beings.

However, I will have a go at doing it your way:

I wrote this mail only to share my thoughts and am not looking for your answers because it was nice sharing thoughts anyway.

Hmm ... nope ... it does not do anything for me at all ... it is sort of like ... um ... masturbating.

September 10 1999

RESPONDENT: When I said ‘(I) am not looking for anybody’s answer’, it doesn’t mean that I am stifling or discouraging anybody to answer. It is just that I would not depend upon anybody else to give answers to my problems. I will try to sort it out myself. However if somebody’s reply to my mail or any writing for that matter, helps me to understand some concept, it is a bonus.

RICHARD: Ahh ... good. There are several items in your last post that I wished to respond to. Vis.:

• [Respondent]: ‘I was thinking about ‘spiritualism versus actualism’. I think the reason why I still can’t differentiate between these two is perhaps a lack of PCE. To me both Satori and PCE look same. I have no experience of either. I practiced Vipassana irregularly and found that it made difference in my ordinary life. It did help to make me reasonably happy. I don’t care about what is the exact philosophy behind it. I don’t think that the spiritual practices are useless’.

It is this simple: the English translation of the Pali ‘Vipassana Bhavana’ is ‘Insight Meditation’. ‘Bhavana’ means ‘to cultivate’, and, as the word is always used in reference to the mind, ‘Bhavana’ means ‘mental cultivation’. ‘Vipassana’ means ‘seeing’ or ‘perceiving’ something with meticulousness discernment, seeing each component as distinct and separate, and piercing all the way through so as to perceive the most fundamental reality of that thing and which leads to intuition into the basic reality of whatever is being inspected. Thus ‘Vipassana Bhavana’ means the cultivation of the mind, aimed at seeing in a special way that leads to intuitive discernment and to full understanding of Mr. Gotama the Sakyan’s basic precepts. In ‘Vipassana Bhavana’ , Buddhists cultivate this special way of seeing life. They train themselves to see reality exactly as it is described by Mr. Gotama the Sakyan, and in the English-speaking world they call this practice ‘Vipassana Meditation’.

Consequently, when a person who ‘doesn’t care about what is the exact philosophy behind it’ blindly practices ‘Vipassana’ it is a further withdrawal from this actual world than what ‘normal’ people currently experience in the illusionary ‘reality’ of their ‘real world’. All Buddhists (just like Mr. Gotama the Sakyan) do not want to be here at this place in space – now at this moment in time – as this flesh and blood form, walking and talking and eating and drinking and urinating and defecating and being the universes’ experience of its own infinitude as a reflective and sensate human being. They put immense effort into bringing ‘samsara’ (the Hindu and/or Buddhist belief in the endless round of birth and death and rebirth) to an end ... if they liked being here now they would welcome their rebirth and delight in being able to be here now again and again as a human being. They just don’t wanna be here (not only not being here now but never, ever again). Is it not so blatantly obvious that Mr. Gotama the Sakyan just did not like being here? Does one wonder why one never saw his anti-life stance before? How on earth can someone who dislikes being here so much ever be interested in bringing about peace-on-earth? In this respect he was just like all the Gurus and God-Men down through the ages ... the whole lot of them were/are anti-life to the core. For example:

• [Mr. Gotama the Sakyan]: ‘If there is someone who is unaware of the Tathagata’s most profound viewpoint of the eternally abiding, unchanging, fine and mysterious essential body (dharmakaya), that it is said that the body that eats is not the essential body, and who is unaware of the Tathagata’s path to the power of virtue and majesty; then, this is called suffering. (...) you should know that this person necessarily shall fall into the evil destinies and his circulation through birth and death (samsara) will increase greatly, the bonds becoming numerous, and he will undergo afflictions. If there is someone who is able to know that the Tathagata is eternally abiding without any change, or hears that he is eternally abiding, or if [this] Sutra meets his ear, then he shall be born into the Heavens above. And after his liberation, he will be able to realize and know that the Tathagata eternally abides without any change. Once he has realized this, he then says, ‘Formerly, I had heard this truth, but now I have attained liberation through realizing and knowing it. Because I have been entirely unaware of this since the beginning, I have cycled through birth and death, going round and round endlessly. Now on this day I have for the first time arrived at the true knowledge’. [endquote]. Chapter 10: The Four Truths; [647b]; ‘The Great Parinirvana Sutra’; (T375.12.647a-c); Redacted from the Chinese of Dharmakshema by Huiyan, Huiguan, and Xie Lingyun (T375); Translated into English by Charles Patton.

It can be seen that he clearly and unambiguously states that he (Mr. Gotama the Sakyan) is ‘the eternally abiding, unchanging, fine and mysterious essential body’ even to the point of repeating it twice (‘the Tathagata is eternally abiding without any change’) and (‘the Tathagata eternally abides without any change’) so as to emphasise that ‘someone who is able to know that the Tathagata is eternally abiding without any change ... shall be born into the Heavens above’. And to drive the point home as to just what he means he emphasises that ‘the body that eats is not the essential body’ ... which ‘essential body’ can only be a dissociated state by any description and by any definition.

Which all brings me to your next point. Vis.:

• [Respondent]: ‘What appealed me most about actualism is that I don’t have to believe in it (the same thing I liked about Vipassana)’

If you did ‘care about what is the exact philosophy behind it’ you would find that you do indeed have to believe in ‘Vipassana’ ... but do not take my word for it; instead, shall we see what Mr. Ba Khin (Mr. Satya Goenka’s accredited Master) had to say in 1981? Vis.:

• [Mr. Ba Khin]: ‘Anicca, dukkha, anattā – Impermanence, Suffering and Egolessness – are the three essential characteristics of things in the Teaching of the Buddha. If you know anicca correctly, you will know dukkha as its corollary and anattā as ultimate truth. (...) It is only through experiential understanding of the nature of anicca as an ever-changing process within you that you can understand anicca in the way the Buddha would like you to understand it. (...) It is by the development of the power inherent in the understanding of anicca, dukkha and anattā, that one is able to rid oneself of the saṅkhāra accumulated in one’s own personal account. (...) He who has rid himself of all saṅkhāra comes to the end of suffering, for then no saṅkhāra remains to give the necessary energy to sustain him in any form of life. On the termination of their lives the perfected saints, i.e., the Buddhas and arahants, pass into parinibbāna, reaching the end of suffering. For us today who take to vipassanā meditation, it would suffice if we can understand anicca well enough to reach the first stage (...) The fact of anicca, which opens the door to the understanding of dukkha and anattā and eventually to the end of suffering, can be encountered in its full significance only through the Teachings of a Buddha (...) For progress in vipassanā meditation, a student must keep knowing anicca as continuously as possible. (...) The last words of the Buddha just before He breathed His last and passed away into Maha-parinibbāna were: ‘Decay (or anicca) is inherent in all component things. Work out your own salvation with diligence.’ This is in fact the essence of all His teachings during the forty-five years of His ministry. If you will keep up the awareness of the anicca that is inherent in all component things, you are sure to reach the goal in the course of time. (...) It is only when you experience impermanence (anicca) as suffering (dukkha) that you come to the realization of the truth of suffering, the first of the Four Noble Truths basic to the doctrine of the Buddha. Why? Because when you realize the subtle nature of dukkha from which you cannot escape for a moment, you become truly afraid of, disgusted with, and disinclined towards your very existence as mentality-materiality (namarupa), and look for a way of escape to a state beyond dukkha, and so to Nibbāna, the end of suffering. (...) Before entering upon the practice of vipassanā meditation, that is, after samādhi has been developed to a proper level, a student should acquaint himself with the theoretical knowledge of material and mental properties, i.e., of rūpa and nāma. For in vipassanā meditation one contemplates not only the changing nature of matter, but also the changing nature of mentality, of the thought-elements of attention directed towards the process of change going on within matter. At times attention will be focused on the impermanence of the material side of existence, i.e. upon anicca in regard to rūpa, and at other times on the impermanence of the thought-elements or mental side, i.e., upon anicca in regard to nāma. (... ...) The world is now facing serious problems which threaten all mankind. It is just the right time for everyone to take to vipassanā meditation and learn how to find a deep pool of quiet in the midst of all that is happening today. Anicca is inside of everybody. It is within reach of everybody. Just a look into oneself and there it is – anicca to be experienced. When one can feel anicca, when one can experience anicca, and when one can become engrossed in anicca, one can at will cut oneself off from the world of ideation outside. (... ...) The time-clock of vipassanā has now struck – that is, for the revival of Buddha-Dhamma vipassanā in practice. (U Ba Khin, The Essentials of Buddha Dhamma in Meditative Practice http://www.bps.lk/olib/wh/wh231-u.html).

This is what Mr. Eric Lerner had to say about Mr. Ba Khin:

• [Mr. Eric Lerner]: ‘In the past few decades in Theravada Buddhist countries there has been a general revival of interest in insight meditation among the robed Sangha, and with it a spreading of the practice outside the monastery walls. (...) one of the most important meditation masters of modern day Burma, Thray Sithu U Ba Khin (...) [taught] meditation at the International Meditation Centre in Rangoon, which was established under his guidance in the early 1950s. The unique characteristics of his spiritual teaching stem from his situation as a lay meditation master in an orthodox Buddhist country (...) all of his practice was geared specifically to lay people. He developed a powerfully direct approach to vipassanā meditation that could be undertaken in a short period of intensive practice and continued as part of householding life. His method has been of great importance in the transmission of the Dhamma to the West, because in his twenty five years at the Center he instructed scores of foreign visitors who needed no closer acquaintance with Buddhism per se to quickly grasp this practice of insight. Since U Ba Khin’s demise in 1971 several of his commissioned disciples have carried on his work, both within and outside of Burma. Hundreds of Westerners have received the instruction from S.N. Goenka in India, Robert Hover and Ruth Denison in America and John Coleman in England. In addition, several of U Ba Khin’s closest disciples still teach at the Centre in Rangoon’. (Eric Lerner, U Ba Khin: An Appreciation http://www.bps.lk/olib/wh/wh231-u.html).

Just in case this precis of Mr. Ba Khin’s teaching was too much for you to take in, may I leave you with just one sentence of his (copied from above) to leave you with? Vis.: [Mr. Ba Khin]: ‘On the termination of their lives the perfected saints, i.e., the Buddhas and arahants, pass into parinibbāna, reaching the end of suffering’ [dukkha]. [endquote]. And just in case you miss the point, he is clearly saying that the end of suffering lies in ‘parinirvana’ (an after-death state) and is the sole goal of ‘Vipassana Bhavana’.

So, can you now start to ‘differentiate between spiritualism versus actualism’ ?

September 13 1999

RESPONDENT: Richard, I am not replying to your mail separately, because I think I answered (in a post to Vineeto) your question: [Richard]: ‘So, can you now start to ‘differentiate between spiritualism versus actualism’?’ [endquote].

RICHARD: I read your post to Vineeto with interest ... and this sentence of yours stands out dramatically as being the nub of the problem:

[Respondent]: ‘Being brought up in a liberal Hindu culture, I deeply believe that all paths are right and all lead to the same goal’. [endquote].

Would you care to examine this belief? Because, whilst I would concur that there may very well be some accuracy in a statement like ‘all paths lead to the truth’, as actualism is all about facts and actuality (rather than fiction and fantasy) then the wide and wondrous path to an actual freedom from the human condition does not lead ‘to the same goal’ as that espoused by ‘a liberal Hindu culture’ ... it is 180 degrees in the opposite direction.

May I suggest, as a starting point of an examination into your deeply held belief, reading again what I demonstrated (with accredited quotes) in my last post to you? That is: Mr. Gotama the Sakyan’s ‘freedom’ is only attainable after physical death?

Is this not why there is no peace on earth?

July 24 2001

RESPONDENT No. 24: Acceptance and Rejection. They are binaries aren’t they of many things we do. Are they emotionally motivated?

RICHARD: Whether I like it or not I am here on this planet anyway; whether I approve of it or not this universe is happening in either case; whether I accept it or reject it I am going to die one day anyhow. Do you still have a question?

RESPONDENT No. 19: Yes please. Who is that like it or dislike it? Approve or disapprove? And who is it that is here ON this planet anyway ...’? (emphasis added). These question are applicable to the discussion initiated to determine the nature of ‘actual flesh and blood body.

RICHARD: It is simply a case of using the first person pronoun so as to not always be writing like this: ‘Whether this flesh and blood body likes it or not this flesh and blood body is here on this planet anyway; whether this flesh and blood body approves of it or not this universe is happening in either case; whether this flesh and blood body accepts it or rejects it this flesh and blood body is going to die one day anyhow’.

RESPONDENT: I got a bit confused here. What I understood was that ‘this flesh and blood body’ can never like or dislike or approve or disapprove. It is only ‘I’ the entity which does all these things. But now you say the contrary? Or am I missing something?

RICHARD: Possibly ... or it may even be that the whole point of why I wrote what I wrote has been missed: a fact just sits there making likes and dislikes; approvals and disapprovals; acceptances and rejections (or all attributed/ascribed meanings) simply look silly.

‘Tis impossible to argue with a fact.

July 24 2001

RESPONDENT No 24: Acceptance and Rejection. They are binaries aren’t they of many things we do. Are they emotionally motivated?

RICHARD: Whether I like it or not I am here on this planet anyway; whether I approve of it or not this universe is happening in either case; whether I accept it or reject it I am going to die one day anyhow. Do you still have a question?

RESPONDENT No. 19: Yes please. Who is that like it or dislike it? Approve or disapprove? And who is it that is here ON this planet anyway ...’? (emphasis added). These question are applicable to the discussion initiated to determine the nature of ‘actual flesh and blood body.

RICHARD: It is simply a case of using the first person pronoun so as to not always be writing like this: ‘Whether this flesh and blood body likes it or not this flesh and blood body is here on this planet anyway; whether this flesh and blood body approves of it or not this universe is happening in either case; whether this flesh and blood body accepts it or rejects it this flesh and blood body is going to die one day anyhow’.

RESPONDENT: I got a bit confused here. What I understood was that ‘this flesh and blood body’ can never like or dislike or approve or disapprove. It is only ‘I’ the entity which does all these things. But now you say the contrary? Or am I missing something?

RICHARD: Possibly ... or it may even be that the whole point of why I wrote what I wrote has been missed: a fact just sits there making likes and dislikes; approvals and disapprovals; acceptances and rejections (or all attributed/ascribed meanings) simply look silly. ‘Tis impossible to argue with a fact.

RESPONDENT: Okay, I have no arguments with ‘a fact just sits there making likes and dislikes; approvals and disapprovals; acceptances and rejections (or all attributed/ascribed meanings) simply look silly’. But I am still curious to know that when No. 19 asked you ‘Who is that like it or dislike it?’ why did you answer ‘this flesh and blood body’ rather than saying ‘I’ the alien entity.

RICHARD: Ahh ... I see that I misunderstood the direction of your query. To explain some of the nonsense that passes for dialogue on this and other mailing lists: No. 19 and I have had quite a lengthy e-mail exchange over a number of years ... yet he still tries out these undergraduate debating tricks on me from time-to-time. Vis.:

• [No. 19 to Richard]: ‘Who stands outside of life to pronounce this judgment?’

And:

• [No. 19 to Richard]: ‘Who determines what is silly?’

And again:

• [No. 19 to Richard]: ‘Who controls the ‘I’ you believe needs controlling?’

Or even:

• [No. 19 to Richard]: ‘There is no ‘one’s destiny’ for there is no ‘one’ to be destined’.

No. 19 is not the only person yet to graduate, of course, there are many who have asked the same-same thing again and again as if it were a deep and penetrating question and/or exposé. For just one example among the many:

• [Co-Respondent]: ‘It is funny that a person claims that they are selfless, as in ‘I am selfless’, and that is what you keep doing in a variety of forms over and over.
• [Richard]: ‘I generally say ‘I am a fellow human being sans ‘I’ as ego and ‘me’ as soul’ or ‘there is neither ‘self’ nor ‘Self’ in this flesh and blood body’. I also say that there are three I’s altogether but only one is actual (this flesh and blood body). I also say that I use the first person pronoun so as to save writing in a stilted fashion such as this:

• ‘This flesh and blood body generally says ‘this flesh and blood body is a fellow human being sans ‘I’ as ego and ‘me’ as soul’ or ‘there is neither ‘self’ nor ‘Self’ in this flesh and blood body’. This flesh and blood body also says that there are three I’s altogether but only one is actual (this flesh and blood body). This flesh and blood body also says that this flesh and blood body uses the first person pronoun so as to save writing in a stilted fashion such as this’.

But ... c’est la vie, I guess.

April 04 2002

RICHARD: One needs to contact, or have a connection with, apperceptive awareness so as to no longer be alone in the monumental endeavour to end all the misery and mayhem which epitomises the human condition. Hence the activation of one’s innate naiveté – the closest approximation to innocence one can have whilst being a ‘self’ – ensures that such a connection is sustained.

RESPONDENT Richard, I have read this definition of naiveté earlier on AF site, but could never really understand it. You define it as ‘the closest approximation to innocence one can have whilst being a ‘self’’. But what is this ‘innocence’ one can have whilst being a ‘self’.

RICHARD: It is the nearest a ‘self’ can have to innocence ... innocence is when the ‘self’ is no longer in existence.

RESPONDENT Can you please describe it the way you describe your AF experience.

RICHARD: In a nutshell it is where one is walking through the world in a state of wide-eyed wonder ... simply marvelling at it all. Naiveté is that intimate aspect of oneself that one usually keeps hidden away for fear of seeming foolish ... it is like being a child again, but with adult sensibilities, which means that one can separate out the distinction between being naïve and being gullible.

Some synonyms of naiveté are: guileless, artless, simple, ingenuous, innocuous, unsophisticated, artless, frank, open.

What ensues when one walks through the world in a state of wide-eyed wonder and amazement – simply marvelling at the magnificence that this physical universe actually is – is a blitheness (being carefree, happy, merry, amiable and so on) and a gaiety (jollity, joviality, cheeriness, delight, fun, and so on) as the inevitable result ... cynicism can no longer get a look-in.

One can easily enter into the magical fairy-tale-like paradise that this verdant and azure earth actually is.

RESPONDENT You say that ‘self’ is present in such a state. Does it mean that apperception and ‘self’ can co-exist – for a short time at least?

RICHARD: No, not even for a short time.

RESPONDENT If yes, does it mean that I can experience apperception while also experiencing (feeling) self at the same moment of time?

RICHARD: No, apperception is where the self is not.

RESPONDENT How is it different in a peak experience?

RICHARD: In a peak experience, of such purity and perfection as a pure consciousness experience (PCE), the self is absent and all is transparently clear of its own accord – such peerless clarity is called an apperceptive awareness – and when one falls back out of such an experience into being a self again one needs to enable a connection to be made with that apperceptive awareness so as not to be alone in the endeavour to end all the misery and mayhem which epitomises the human condition.

Naiveté is the way of enabling such a connection with the PCE ... the connection I call pure intent.

June 14 2004

RESPONDENT No. 49: Mass tells space to curve such that a time dilation results as does a gravitational field. Black holes produce ‘currents’ that change the course of light which of course is proof of the mass properties of what scientists call ‘photons’. If all things are relative including time, then does an instantaneous awareness only sense an instantaneous space and time?

RICHARD: As time is not relative – except in the mathematical models theoretical physicists posit (in lieu of direct experience) – your query has no substance in actuality.

RESPONDENT No. 49: In other words, would you see space and time as two unrelated characteristics?

RICHARD: Time and space (and matter) are seamless.

RESPONDENT: May be I am not getting your meaning of ‘seamless’, but to me your answer seems to indicate existence of time in actuality.

RICHARD: Aye ... time is actual – as is space and matter (mass/ energy) – and I am using the word in its ‘without a seam or seams’ (Oxford Dictionary) meaning.

Put simply: as there cannot be time without space (and matter), and vice versa, they are indeed related (if that is the right word to use to describe that which is inseparable in the first place).

RESPONDENT: As I understand the answer to this question (of Respondent No. 49) should be ‘Time doesn’t exist in actuality’.

RICHARD: As my answer to ‘this question’ is an answer to a hypothetical (as in the ‘if’ phrasing) question about an instantaneous awareness seeing instantaneous relative time and space (as in the ‘in other words’ phrasing) as being two unrelated characteristics of a mathematical model of the universe (as the ‘mass tells space to curve’/‘a time dilation results’ phrasing indicates) then all that I am saying, in effect, is that relative time does not exist in actuality.

Time is absolute (as is space and matter).

RESPONDENT: This (that time doesn’t exist in actuality) occurred to me while reading another mail of yours to Respondent No. 25.

RICHARD: What I am saying, in the e-mail you are referring to, is that time itself (as in durationless time/ eternal time/ beginningless and endless time) – as contrasted to time as a measure of the sequence of events (as in past/ present/ future) – does not move/flow but that it is objects in (infinite) space which do.

[Editorial note: time itself, as is readily apparent in the actual world, is the arena (so to speak) in which events occur/in which matter permutates].

I am aware that my words are being hijacked, as it were, by an identity – and thus turned into concepts – forever locked-out of time and accordingly draw a distinction between what the word ‘time’ refers to in the real world (a flow or a movement of the arena, so to speak, in which events occur) and what is actually happening (it is never not this moment) as a prompt for direct experience (there is a vast stillness here).

Put succinctly: the moment (this moment) in which event ‘A’ happens is the exact same moment (this moment) in which event ‘B’ happens ... it is only the events which change/ move/ flow and not the moment itself (eternity).

Have you never noticed it is never not this moment?

June 16 2004

RICHARD: (...) relative time does not exist in actuality. Time is absolute (as is space and matter).

RESPONDENT: I need to mull over it. I have difficulty distinguishing between duration and time. I am not able to comprehend the concept of absolute time.

RICHARD: Oh? Yet you are able to comprehend the concept of relative time?

Put as simply as possible: in physics the term ‘absolute time’ (or ‘the absolute character of time’) is another way of saying ‘universal time’ (or ‘the universality of time’) ... meaning that it is not dependent upon the relative motion of the observer and the observed. Vis.:

• ‘relativity (physics): the dependence of observations on the relative motion of the observer and the observed object; the branch of physics that deals with the description of space and time allowing for this’. (Oxford Dictionary).

I have oft-times said that the relativity theory might be better named the subjectivity theory.

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RICHARD: (...) the moment (this moment) in which event ‘A’ happens is the exact same moment (this moment) in which event ‘B’ happens ... it is only the events which change/ move/ flow and not the moment itself (eternity). Have you never noticed it is never not this moment?

RESPONDENT: Yes I have noticed it, but ...

RICHARD: If I might suggest (before you go on with your ‘but’)? Should the occasion arise that you were to again notice it then stay with that noticing so as to allow the marvelling, that it is never not this moment, to unfold in all its wonderment.

RESPONDENT: ... [but] what I am not able to understand is what you wrote just before it. For me, the moment in which event ‘A’ happens is a different ‘this moment’ than the one in which event ‘B’ happens.

RICHARD: Are you so sure, upon reflection, that both the event (event ‘A’) and the moment (this moment) are, in fact, different from both the event (event ‘B’) and the moment (this moment) in which that other event happens ... or is it only the events which are different?

In other words what is it about this moment (the moment in which event ‘A’ happens) which makes it indeed different from this moment (the moment in which event ‘B’ happens) if it is not only the event which changes?

RESPONDENT: In other words even though it is always ‘this moment’, each ‘this moment’ is different from the other.

RICHARD: If, for you, this moment is indeed different from the other – from any other moment – then it is not ‘always’ this moment after all (for you) as what you are saying, in effect, is that it is always this (different) moment ... which is but another way of saying ‘this ever-changing moment’.

Yet it is what happens in this moment which is always different (ever-changing) is it not?

July 06 2004

RICHARD: (...) relative time does not exist in actuality. Time is absolute (as is space and matter).

RESPONDENT: I need to mull over it. I have difficulty distinguishing between duration and time. I am not able to comprehend the concept of absolute time.

RICHARD: Oh? Yet you are able to comprehend the concept of relative time? Put as simply as possible: in physics the term ‘absolute time’ (or ‘the absolute character of time’) is another way of saying ‘universal time’ (or ‘the universality of time’) ... meaning that it is not dependent upon the relative motion of the observer and the observed. Vis.: ‘relativity (physics): the dependence of observations on the relative motion of the observer and the observed object; the branch of physics that deals with the description of space and time allowing for this’. (Oxford Dictionary). I have oft-times said that the relativity theory might be better named the subjectivity theory.

RESPONDENT: Well, I can understand absolute time as contrasted with relative time as described in physics/ relativity theory. What I am not able to comprehend is durationless time, which is what I thought you referred to as absolute time.

RICHARD: I did point out to you, in my initial response, that I was answering a hypothetical question about an instantaneous awareness seeing instantaneous relative time and space as being two unrelated characteristics of a mathematical model – which is what ‘physics/relativity theory’ is – of the universe. Vis.:

• [Respondent No. 49]: Mass tells space to curve such that a time dilation results as does a gravitational field. Black holes produce ‘currents’ that change the course of light which of course is proof of the mass properties of what scientists call ‘photons’. If all things are relative including time, then does an instantaneous awareness only sense an instantaneous space and time?
• [Richard]: ‘As time is not relative – except in the mathematical models theoretical physicists posit (in lieu of direct experience) – your query has no substance in actuality.

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RICHARD: (...) the moment (this moment) in which event ‘A’ happens is the exact same moment (this moment) in which event ‘B’ happens ... it is only the events which change/ move/ flow and not the moment itself (eternity). Have you never noticed it is never not this moment?

RESPONDENT: Yes I have noticed it, but ...

RICHARD: If I might suggest (before you go on with your ‘but’)? Should the occasion arise that you were to again notice it then stay with that noticing so as to allow the marvelling, that it is never not this moment, to unfold in all its wonderment.

RESPONDENT: Yes, I will try to do it, but I think it is important for me first to understand what is meant by ‘it is never not this moment’, and as you see below, my understanding is quite different than what you mean.

RICHARD: Perhaps a simple demonstration will convey what a thousand words may not: presuming that you are seated at a computer screen situated against a wall in a room ... if you were to turn around, stand up, and look at the opposite wall whilst contemplating bodily moving to there and viewing the computer screen from that position such an event (standing with your back to the opposite wall) would be properly called a future event would it not?

Now commence moving towards that (opposite) wall: at the first step ask yourself what time and what place it is ... and do so again at each subsequent step.

On each occasion it will be seen that you are just here, at this location, right now, at this moment, all the while you are (supposedly) moving into your future (standing with your back to the opposite wall and viewing the computer screen from that position) ... and I have written about this before:

• [Richard]: ‘... one starts to feel ‘alive’ for the first time in one’s life.
Being ‘alive’ is to be paying attention – exclusive attention – to this moment in time and this place in space. This attention becomes fascination ... and fascination leads to reflective contemplation. Then – and only then – apperception can occur. An apperceptive awareness can be evoked by paying exclusive attention to being fully alive right now. This moment is your only moment of being alive ... one is never alive at any other time than now. And, wherever you are, one is always here ... even if you start walking over to ‘there’, along the way to ‘there’ you are always here ... and when you arrive ‘there’, it too is here. Thus attention becomes a fascination with the fact that one is always here ... and it is already now. Fascination leads to reflective contemplation. As one is already here, and it is always now ... then one has arrived before one starts.
The potent combination of attention, fascination, reflection and contemplation produces apperception, which happens when the mind becomes aware of itself. Apperception is an awareness of consciousness. It is not ‘I’ being aware of ‘me’ being conscious; it is the mind’s awareness of itself. Apperception – a way of seeing that can be arrived at by reflective and fascinating contemplative thought – is when ‘I’ cease thinking and thinking takes place of its own accord ... and ‘me’ disappears along with all the feelings. Such a mind, being free of the thinker and the feeler – ‘I’ as ego and ‘me’ as soul – is capable of immense clarity and purity ... as a sensate body only, one is automatically benevolent and benign.

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RESPONDENT: ... [but] what I am not able to understand is what you wrote just before it. For me, the moment in which event ‘A’ happens is a different ‘this moment’ than the one in which event ‘B’ happens.

RICHARD: Are you so sure, upon reflection, that both the event (event ‘A’) and the moment (this moment) are, in fact, different from both the event (event ‘B’) and the moment (this moment) in which that other event happens ... or is it only the events which are different? In other words what is it about this moment (the moment in which event ‘A’ happens) which makes it indeed different from this moment (the moment in which event ‘B’ happens) if it is not only the event which changes?

RESPONDENT: Yes, I can see that it is only the event which changes. But I can’t see the moment separate from the event.

RICHARD: As you are, presumably, once again seated at your computer screen – after your brief foray into your future (at the opposite wall) – are you now able to see, experientially, that it is only the events which are different?

RESPONDENT: And that is why my original impression of this thread was that the time itself doesn’t exist in actuality.

RICHARD: Time itself (as in durationless time/ eternal time/ beginningless and endless time) does indeed exist in actuality: time as a measure of the sequence of events (as in past/ present/ future) is but a convention.

Presumably some pre-historical person/ persons noticed what the shadow of a stick standing perpendicular in the ground did such as to eventually lead to the sundial – a circular measure of the movement of a cast shadow arbitrarily divided into twelve sections because of a prevailing duo-decimal counting system – and then to water-clocks/ sand-clocks and thence to pendulum-clocks/ spring-clocks and thus to electrical-clocks/ electronic-clocks and, currently, energy-clocks (aka ‘atomic-clocks’) ... with all such measurement of movement being a measure of the earth’s rotation whilst in orbit around its radiant star.

Put succinctly: it is not time itself (eternity) which moves but objects in (infinite) space.

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RESPONDENT: In other words even though it is always ‘this moment’, each ‘this moment’ is different from the other.

RICHARD: If, for you, this moment is indeed different from the other – from any other moment – then it is not ‘always’ this moment after all (for you) as what you are saying, in effect, is that it is always this (different) moment ... which is but another way of saying ‘this ever-changing moment’. Yet it is what happens in this moment which is always different (ever-changing) is it not?

RESPONDENT: As I have written above, I am not able to see ‘this moment’ separate from the event. For me each moment is different because of the events attached with it.

RICHARD: And, as the events are always changing (nothing is ever exactly the same twice), then this moment is (erroneously) taken to be ever-changing right along with them, eh?

Is it not cute that what certain peoples have been searching for over millennia – that which is permanent – has been just under their noses, as it were, all along?

August 15 2004

RICHARD: Perhaps a simple demonstration will convey what a thousand words may not: presuming that you are seated at a computer screen situated against a wall in a room ... if you were to turn around, stand up, and look at the opposite wall whilst contemplating bodily moving to there, and viewing the computer screen from that position, such an event (standing with your back to the opposite wall) would be properly called a future event would it not? Now commence moving towards that (opposite) wall: at the first step ask yourself what time and what place it is ... and do so again at each subsequent step. On each occasion it will be seen that you are just here, at this location, right now, at this moment, all the while you are (supposedly) moving into your future (standing with your back to the opposite wall and viewing the computer screen from that position) ...

RESPONDENT: The experiment you suggested shows that I was always ‘here’ at each ‘this moment’. But still each ‘here’ and each ‘this moment’ was different than the other.

RICHARD: What is it about ‘each ‘this moment’’ which makes them indeed different from the other?

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RESPONDENT: Yes, I can see that it is only the event which changes. But I can’t see the moment separate from the event.

RICHARD: As you are, presumably, once again seated at your computer screen – after your brief foray into your future (at the opposite wall) – are you now able to see, experientially, that it is only the events which are different?

RESPONDENT: There is no difference in the quality of the two ‘this’ moments. But they are still different as they are two different points in time.

RICHARD: Again, just what is it about the ‘two different points in time’ which makes them indeed different?

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RESPONDENT: And that is why my original impression of this thread was that the time itself doesn’t exist in actuality.

RICHARD: Time itself (as in durationless time/ eternal time/ beginningless and endless time) does indeed exist in actuality: time as a measure of the sequence of events (as in past/present/future) is but a convention. Presumably some pre-historical person/persons noticed what the shadow of a stick standing perpendicular in the ground did such as to eventually lead to the sundial – a circular measure of the movement of a cast shadow arbitrarily divided into twelve sections because of a prevailing duo-decimal counting system – and then to water-clocks/sand-clocks and thence to pendulum-clocks/spring-clocks and thus to electrical-clocks/electronic-clocks and, currently, energy-clocks (aka ‘atomic-clocks’) ... with all such measurement of movement being a measure of the earth’s rotation whilst in orbit around its radiant star. Put succinctly: it is not time itself (eternity) which moves but objects in (infinite) space.

RESPONDENT: Do you mean the eternal time is the same as this moment?

RICHARD: This moment is eternal (it has no beginning, no duration, no ending.

RESPONDENT: Or in other words there is only one single moment in the entire eternal time?

RICHARD: In other words, this moment is eternity (time without a beginning, a duration, or an ending.

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RESPONDENT: I am not able to see ‘this moment’ separate from the event. For me each moment is different because of the events attached with it.

RICHARD: And, as the events are always changing (nothing is ever exactly the same twice), then this moment is (erroneously) taken to be ever-changing right along with them, eh? Is it not cute that what certain peoples have been searching for over millennia – that which is permanent – has been just under their noses, as it were, all along?

RESPONDENT: I can understand this only if I take the entire eternal time as one single moment!

RICHARD: If I might suggest? Try taking this moment as being the arena, as it were, in which the entire sequence of events have happened, are happening, and will happen.

August 21 2004

RESPONDENT: The experiment you suggested shows that I was always ‘here’ at each ‘this moment’. But still each ‘here’ and each ‘this moment’ was different than the other.

RICHARD: What is it about ‘each ‘this moment’’ which makes them indeed different from the other?

RESPONDENT: The events associated with it. However now with my modified understanding (see further below) of this moment being the same as eternal time or eternity, I agree that the moment is the same always by the very definition.

RICHARD: Rather than ‘by the very definition’ is it not by the very fact that it is only the events which are different? For example:

• [example only]: ‘I agree that the moment is the same always by the very fact that it is only the events which are different’. [end example].

And I suggest this as an understanding born out of observation (empiricism) is streets ahead of an understanding based on definitions (rationalism). Vis.:

• empiricism: the doctrine or theory that all knowledge is derived from sense-experience; the doctrine or theory that concepts and statements have meaning only in relation to sense-experience; (opp. rationalism).
• rationalism: the doctrine or theory that reason rather than sense-experience is the foundation of certainty in knowledge; (opp. empiricism). (Oxford Dictionary).

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RESPONDENT: There is no difference in the quality of the two ‘this’ moments. But they are still different as they are two different points in time.

RICHARD: Again, just what is it about the ‘two different points in time’ which makes them indeed different?

RESPONDENT: As explained above. The moment can not be a point in time as the time is durationless. So the moment is the same as time and there can’t be two moments.

RICHARD: Because you have, twice now, linked both response what I would like to do is to put your (further above) explanation together with your (just above) reasoning:

1. The moment is the same always by the very definition [of] this moment being the same as eternal time or eternity.
2. The moment can not be a point in time as the time is durationless.
3. So the moment is the same as time and there can’t be two moments.

Not to belabour the point but, rather, to clarify it: as your understanding in No. 2 – ‘the moment can not be a point in time’ – is justified by your ‘because’ statement (as in your ‘as the time is durationless’ phrasing) your ‘therefore’ conclusion in No. 3 (as in your ‘so the moment is the same as time’ phrasing) is primarily based upon the definition in No. 1, is it not, and not born out of the observation that the only thing different about the moment are the events?

Otherwise, whence comes the justification (that time is without duration) ... direct experience?

And the reason why I am drawing this to your attention is because of what you have to say (at the bottom of this page) about making ‘the time (or this moment) a concept’.

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RESPONDENT: Do you mean the eternal time is the same as this moment?

RICHARD: This moment is eternal (it has no beginning, no duration, no ending.

RESPONDENT: Or in other words there is only one single moment in the entire eternal time?

RICHARD: In other words, this moment is eternity (time without a beginning, a duration, or an ending).

RESPONDENT: Okay. So I modify my understanding of this moment as the same as the eternal time or the eternity.

RICHARD: This is why I have (possibly) belaboured the point further above: in order to comprehend how the physical world actually is it is imperative that such comprehension be born out of observation ... and not be based upon definitions.

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RESPONDENT: I am not able to see ‘this moment’ separate from the event. For me each moment is different because of the events attached with it.

RICHARD: And, as the events are always changing (nothing is ever exactly the same twice), then this moment is (erroneously) taken to be ever-changing right along with them, eh? Is it not cute that what certain peoples have been searching for over millennia – that which is permanent – has been just under their noses, as it were, all along?

RESPONDENT: I can understand this only if I take the entire eternal time as one single moment!

RICHARD: If I might suggest? Try taking this moment as being the arena, as it were, in which the entire sequence of events have happened, are happening, and will happen.

RESPONDENT: Okay, but ...

RICHARD: If I may interject (before you go on with your ‘but ...’)? Did you try taking it that way (rather than taking it the way you proposed)?

RESPONDENT: ... [but] doesn’t this make the time (or this moment) a concept rather than an actuality?

RICHARD: If you were to look again you will see that I deliberately mimicked your phrasing (as in your ‘if I take’ and my ‘try taking’).

RESPONDENT: If there is only one single moment which is durationless, without beginning or an ending, then what is the point in saying that the events happen in an arena called this moment (or time)?

RICHARD: If I may point out? I did not say there is only ‘one single moment’ ... that is what you exclaimed. Vis.:

• [Respondent]: ‘I can understand this only if I take the entire eternal time as *one single moment!* [emphasis added].

This is what I wrote in my very first response to you in this thread:

• [Respondent]: ‘This (that time doesn’t exist in actuality) occurred to me while reading another mail of yours to Respondent No. 25.
• [Richard]: ‘What I am saying, in the e-mail you are referring to, is that time itself (as in durationless time/eternal time/beginningless and endless time) – as contrasted to time as a measure of the sequence of events (as in past/present/future) – does not move/flow but that it is objects in (infinite) space which do.
I am aware that my words are being hijacked, as it were, by an identity – *and thus turned into concepts* – forever locked-out of time and accordingly draw a distinction between what the word ‘time’ refers to in the real world (a flow or a movement of the arena, so to speak, in which events occur) and what is actually happening (it is never not this moment) as a prompt for direct experience (there is a vast stillness here).
Put succinctly: the moment (this moment) in which event ‘A’ happens is the exact same moment (this moment) in which event ‘B’ happens ... it is only the events which change/ move/ flow and not the moment itself (eternity).
Have you never noticed it is never not this moment? [emphasis added]. (June 14 2004).

Put simply: I use the word ‘arena’ deliberately because it is, typically, a space/place word (and not a time/moment word).

RESPONDENT: Can’t we simply say that the events just happen?

RICHARD: Hmm ... do objects ‘just exist’ as well, then, and not in (infinite) space?

July 28 2005

CO-RESPONDENT: When a feeling changes within a person, something supplants the feeling/belief. Feelings and beliefs don’t just disappear. What is the thought, memory, or whatever that is able to permanently eliminate a feeling/belief?

RICHARD: Seeing the fact will set you free of the belief.

CO-RESPONDENT: What is the fact?

RICHARD: What is the belief?

CO-RESPONDENT: Let’s use the example ‘No one really likes me’.

RICHARD: Okay ... here is the way the actualism method works in practice: 1. Was that – your ‘no one really likes me’ example – the feeling which changed within you? 2. If so, what was it that triggered off that feeling (the feeling which changed within you)? 3. What did that feeling which changed within you change into? 4. What was it that triggered off that change? 5. Was it silly to have both event No. 2 and event No. 4 take away your enjoyment and appreciation of being alive at this particular moment (the only moment you are ever alive)?

RESPONDENT: Why is it important to ask question 2, 3 & 4?

RICHARD: So as to ascertain causation – that feeling does not usually arise in vacuo – and the succession (often through nothing other than association).

RESPONDENT: Can one not see the silliness of having the feeling immediately after 1?

RICHARD: If one can see the silliness of having the feeling, period, then surely one can also see the sensibility of determining cause and effect (and succession) so as to pre-empt an otherwise endless arousal of same (and its succession) through ignorance for the remainder of one’s life?

RESPONDENT: Speaking personally I am not able to find the answers to 2, 3 & 4 most of the time, yet I can see the silliness of having the feeling take away my enjoyment.

RICHARD: Just so there is no misunderstanding: you are saying that most of the time, even though you can see the silliness of having the feeling take away your enjoyment and appreciation of being alive at this particular moment (the only moment you are ever alive), you are not able to find (a) what it was that triggered off that feeling ... and (b) what that feeling changed into ... and (c) what it was that triggered off that change?

‘Tis no wonder, then, that you report the actualism method not working for you.

July 31 2005

CO-RESPONDENT: When a feeling changes within a person, something supplants the feeling/belief. Feelings and beliefs don’t just disappear. What is the thought, memory, or whatever that is able to permanently eliminate a feeling/belief?

RICHARD: Seeing the fact will set you free of the belief.

CO-RESPONDENT: What is the fact?

RICHARD: What is the belief?

CO-RESPONDENT: Let’s use the example ‘No one really likes me’.

RICHARD: Okay ... here is the way the actualism method works in practice: 1. Was that – your ‘no one really likes me’ example – the feeling which changed within you? 2. If so, what was it that triggered off that feeling (the feeling which changed within you)? 3. What did that feeling which changed within you change into? 4. What was it that triggered off that change? 5. Was it silly to have both event No. 2 and event No. 4 take away your enjoyment and appreciation of being alive at this particular moment (the only moment you are ever alive)?

RESPONDENT: Why is it important to ask question 2, 3 & 4?

RICHARD: So as to ascertain causation – that feeling does not usually arise in vacuo – and the succession (often through nothing other than association).

RESPONDENT: Okay, then why is it important to ascertain causation and the succession?

RICHARD: Because my co-respondent has a feeling of being collectively disliked/ unlikeable – a feeling which changes inasmuch something (as yet unspecified) supplants that feeling/ belief – and, reporting that the feeling and belief does not just disappear, asks for a panacea.

As there is no such universal cure-all (short of an immediate ‘self’-immolation in toto) then in order to facilitate the prospect of seeing the fact which will set them free, of both the feeling and the something which supplants the feeling/ belief, it is necessary for them to ascertain causality – what it was which triggered off that feeling which changed (such as to bring feeling felicitous/innocuous to an end) – and the mechanics of the successivity which followed (what the feeling changed into and the process whereby that supplantation occurred).

As a feeling such as that, involving as it does at least some other human beings, does not usually arise in vacuo then some event (or even a thought about, or a memory of, some event) would have triggered both it and its succession off it behoves them to get off their backside and actually find out, experientially, for themselves just what it was which caused the loss of felicity/innocuity.

Once the specific moment of ceasing to feel felicitous/ innocuous is pin-pointed, and the silliness of having such an incident as that (no matter what it is) take away their enjoyment and appreciation of this only moment of being alive is seen for what it is – usually some habitual reactive response – they can be once more feeling felicitous/innocuous ... but with a pin-pointed cue to watch out for next time so as to not have that trigger off yet another bout of the same-old same-old.

This is called nipping it in the bud before it gets out of hand – pre-empting an otherwise endless arousal of the feeling (and its succession) through ignorance of what triggers same, each occasion again, for the remainder of their life – and with application and diligence and patience and perseverance they can soon get the knack of this and more and more time is spent enjoying and appreciating this moment of being alive.

RESPONDENT: Does it help to see the silliness?

RICHARD: What is being pointed out, in the above exchange, is seeing the silliness of having such an event – whatever that event may be – take away one’s enjoyment and appreciation of being alive at this particular moment (the only moment one is ever alive) by having such incident as that trigger off the feeling.

The name of the game is to habituate an affective imitation of the actual each moment/ each place again – to consistently feel as happy and harmless (free of both malice and sorrow and, thus, their antidotal pacifiers love and compassion) as is humanly possible whilst remaining a ‘self’ – so as to enable the already always existing peace-on-earth to be apparent sooner rather than later ... therefore whenever/wherever there is the slightest diminution of that felicity/ innocuity it speaks for itself that some event, which has been constantly granted the power such as to customarily render that peace and harmony short-lived, has been permitted, via a lifetime of continuous/routine ignoration, to wreak its havoc once again.

RESPONDENT: If yes, then it is not required if one can see the silliness in the first place. Non?

RICHARD: There is more to the actualism method than merely seeing the silliness of the feeling as it arises/when it has arisen ... much, much more.

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RESPONDENT: Can one not see the silliness of having the feeling immediately after 1?

RICHARD: If one can see the silliness of having the feeling, period, then surely one can also see the sensibility of determining cause and effect (and succession) so as to pre-empt an otherwise endless arousal of same (and its succession) through ignorance for the remainder of one’s life?

RESPONDENT: Hmm ... in my experience, for the prominent feelings like anger, jealousy, hatred, malice etc, seeing the silliness itself can pre-empt it.

RICHARD: Here is what a dictionary has to say about that word:

• ‘pre-empt: prevent (an occurrence) or stop (a person) by anticipatory action; forestall, preclude’. (Oxford Dictionary).

How can you prevent an occurrence of feelings like anger, jealousy, hatred, malice, etcetera, by anticipatory action when you remain ignorant of the events which trigger their arousal?

RESPONDENT: Silliness can be seen just by realizing the fact that it is only in my head.

RICHARD: But what occasioned feelings like anger, jealousy, hatred , malice, etcetera, to be in your head in the first place?

RESPONDENT: Let me give an example. When anger arises in me and I can see it beginning to arise and see silliness in having it, I can drop it immediately irrespective of what caused it and at what precise point it started.

RICHARD: Why wait for anger to arise? Why not become aware of the events which trigger its arousal and thus nip it in the bud by anticipatory action *before* it arises ... by seeing the silliness of having such an event as that – no matter what it is – take away your enjoyment and appreciation of being alive at this particular moment (the only moment you are ever alive)?

RESPONDENT: From my previous experience and also by observing others I know that being angry is not good.

RICHARD: Can you not see you are better off, though, not to have it arise in the first place?

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RESPONDENT: Speaking personally I am not able to find the answers to 2, 3 & 4 most of the time, yet I can see the silliness of having the feeling take away my enjoyment.

RICHARD: Just so there is no misunderstanding: you are saying that most of the time, even though you can see the silliness of having the feeling take away your enjoyment and appreciation of being alive at this particular moment (the only moment you are ever alive), you are not able to find (a) what it was that triggered off that feeling ... and (b) what that feeling changed into ... and (c) what it was that triggered off that change?

RESPONDENT: Yes, that is right. Let me clarify though, the ‘most of the time’ part. I can find the answers (if I want to) to 2,3 & 4 above for more prominent feelings like anger, jealousy, malice – but these are rare for me.

RICHARD: So what (if they are rare)? Why not have them never happen ever again (by ascertaining causation)? Why settle for less?

RESPONDENT: Most of the time, when I am not happy, my feelings are that of boredom, light resentment, hope etc. In case of such feelings, even though I can see the silliness of having them, I can not find what causes them and when do they start.

RICHARD: Put simplistically: they start when the happiness (and harmlessness) stops ... and the happiness (and harmlessness) stops because of an event.

The moment you become aware of feeling bored (for instance) can you not recall when you last felt happy (and harmless)? What has happened, then, between the last time you felt happy (and harmless) and now? When did you feel happy (and harmless) last? Five minutes ago? Five hours ago? What happened to end that happiness (and harmlessness)? Was it something someone said? Or was it something someone did not do? Or was it something you wanted? Or was it something you did not do?

And so on and so forth until the specific moment of ceasing to feel happy (and harmless) is pin-pointed by the event which triggered off that loss of felicity/innocuity.

RESPONDENT: They seem to be ever present in the background.

RICHARD: This is your only moment of being alive ... are they, or are they not, ever present in the background?

RESPONDENT: They just become apparent when I have some time to think about them in my otherwise day-to-day busy life.

RICHARD: In which case you cannot say [quote] ‘when I am not happy’ [endquote] ... you are always unhappy (and harmful).

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RICHARD: ‘Tis no wonder, then, that you report the actualism method not working for you.

RESPONDENT: Indeed it is no wonder. I make no secret of the fact that I do not understand the method.

RICHARD: Nowhere in the exchange that quote came from did you say that the reason why the actualism method does not work for you was because you do not understand it – despite reporting being on this mailing list for around five years – and your co-respondent expressed their appreciation of your support for their beat-up of same by saying they were [quote] ‘grinning from ear to ear’ [endquote]. Vis.:

• [Respondent No. 60]: ‘How Is The Actualist Method Spoiling This Moment Of Being Alive? 1) By making me aware that no fundamental change is occurring; 2) By making me feel *bad* that no fundamental change is occurring; 2) By making me rebel against an activity that is becoming increasingly boring, unpleasant and unsuccessful; 3) By making me feel that there must be something wrong with me because it’s working fine for other people; 4) By confining my mental processes to an uncharacteristically shallow level; a self watching a self watching a self watching a self to the point where I would like to take this useless voyeur and inquisitor by the throat and dash his brains out against the wall). 5) Go to 1.
• [Respondent]: ‘Hi No. 60, On your point 3, I would like to make a comment which might make you feel a little better. This method doesn’t work for me as well –
• [Respondent No. 60]: ‘I’m sorry to hear that, and *I’m grinning from ear to ear* ;-) I can’t deny it’s reassuring not to be a lone freak!
• [Respondent]: ‘– and I am on this list for around 5 years. I can almost assure you that there are a lot of people for whom it doesn’t work. Feel good.
• [Respondent No. 60]: ‘Thankyou, I do! May I wish you a very happy Christmas in return (with an emphasis on happy)’. [emphasis added]. (Monday 20/12/2004 7:04 PM AEDST).

And that was the end of the matter (unless I have missed some e-mails) ... it was not until five months later that you wrote again (on Wednesday 18/05/2005 5:31 PM AEST) when your co-respondent mentioned your name in regards the actualism method not working for you either (as supporting evidence that it is the method which is at fault and not their misapplication of same) ... and nowhere did you explain then that it was because you did not understand the method (unless I have missed some e-mails).

To reduce the actualism method to just seeing the silliness of having the prominent feelings which are rare for you (like anger, jealousy, malice) arise – and to then drop them immediately as they begin to do so irrespective of what caused them and at what precise point they started – is to render it indistinguishable from the socialised/acculturated technique of suppressing feelings as dutifully practised by billions of peoples world wide ... with the same lack of effect in regards bringing about peace and harmony.

I cannot put it much more bluntly than that.

August 11 2005

CO-RESPONDENT: When a feeling changes within a person, something supplants the feeling/ belief. Feelings and beliefs don’t just disappear. What is the thought, memory, or whatever that is able to permanently eliminate a feeling/belief?

RICHARD: Seeing the fact will set you free of the belief.

CO-RESPONDENT: What is the fact?

RICHARD: What is the belief?

CO-RESPONDENT: Let’s use the example ‘No one really likes me’.

RICHARD: Okay ... here is the way the actualism method works in practice: 1. Was that – your ‘no one really likes me’ example – the feeling which changed within you? 2. If so, what was it that triggered off that feeling (the feeling which changed within you)? 3. What did that feeling which changed within you change into? 4. What was it that triggered off that change? 5. Was it silly to have both event No. 2 and event No. 4 take away your enjoyment and appreciation of being alive at this particular moment (the only moment you are ever alive)?

RESPONDENT: Why is it important to ask question 2, 3 & 4?

RICHARD: So as to ascertain causation – that feeling does not usually arise in vacuo – and the succession (often through nothing other than association).

RESPONDENT: Okay, then why is it important to ascertain causation and the succession?

RICHARD: Because my co-respondent has a feeling of being collectively disliked/ unlikeable – a feeling which changes inasmuch something (as yet unspecified) supplants that feeling/ belief – and, reporting that the feeling and belief does not just disappear, asks for a panacea.

As there is no such universal cure-all (short of an immediate ‘self’-immolation in toto) then in order to facilitate the prospect of seeing the fact which will set them free, of both the feeling and the something which supplants the feeling/ belief, it is necessary for them to ascertain causality – what it was which triggered off that feeling which changed (such as to bring feeling felicitous/innocuous to an end) – and the mechanics of the successivity which followed (what the feeling changed into and the process whereby that supplantation occurred).

As a feeling such as that, involving as it does at least some other human beings, does not usually arise in vacuo then some event (or even a thought about, or a memory of, some event) would have triggered both it and its succession off it behoves them to get off their backside and actually find out, experientially, for themselves just what it was which caused the loss of felicity/innocuity.

Once the specific moment of ceasing to feel felicitous/innocuous is pin-pointed, and the silliness of having such an incident as that (no matter what it is) take away their enjoyment and appreciation of this only moment of being alive is seen for what it is – usually some habitual reactive response – they can be once more feeling felicitous/innocuous ... but with a pin-pointed cue to watch out for next time so as to not have that trigger off yet another bout of the same-old same-old.

This is called nipping it in the bud before it gets out of hand – pre-empting an otherwise endless arousal of the feeling (and its succession) through ignorance of what triggers same, each occasion again, for the remainder of their life – and with application and diligence and patience and perseverance they can soon get the knack of this and more and more time is spent enjoying and appreciating this moment of being alive.

RESPONDENT: I still don’t understand how ascertaining the cause and pinpointing the starting of a feeling can set oneself free from that feeling. However rather than arguing about it, I would try my best to put it into practice and then come back to you.

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[Addendum 9 days later]: I could not try this with the feeling of boredom as I have been quite busy and boredom didn’t really hit me. However I have tried this with a feeling of ‘worry’ and here is what I have to report. Yesterday evening I found myself worrying about something (pertaining to work). Here are the questions and answers which I tried as per your suggestion:

Q: How am I experiencing this moment of being alive?

A: Not happy. I am worrying unnecessarily.

Q: When did it start? When did I last felt happy?

A: A few moments ago.

Q: What event started it?

A: A thought hit my mind out of nowhere and I started thinking more and more about it.

Q: What is it converted into?

A: Nothing. It is just plain thinking unnecessarily

Q: Do I see the silliness of having this taking away my happiness in this moment?

A: Yes, sure.

Q: Does it go away by seeing the silliness?

A: No.

Now can you please tell me where I am I wrong in applying the method?

RICHARD: A lack of interest, perchance?

August 13 2005

RESPONDENT: I still don’t understand how ascertaining the cause and pinpointing the starting of a feeling can set oneself free from that feeling. However rather than arguing about it, I would try my best to put it into practice and then come back to you.

[Addendum 9 days later]: I could not try this with the feeling of boredom as I have been quite busy and boredom didn’t really hit me. However I have tried this with a feeling of ‘worry’ and here is what I have to report. Yesterday evening I found myself worrying about something (pertaining to work). Here are the questions and answers which I tried as per your suggestion: Q: How am I experiencing this moment of being alive? A: Not happy. I am worrying unnecessarily. Q: When did it start? When did I last felt happy? A: A few moments ago. Q: What event started it? A: A thought hit my mind out of nowhere and I started thinking more and more about it. Q: What is it converted into? A: Nothing. It is just plain thinking unnecessarily Q: Do I see the silliness of having this taking away my happiness in this moment? A: Yes, sure. Q: Does it go away by seeing the silliness? A: No.

Now can you please tell me where I am I wrong in applying the method?

RICHARD: A lack of interest, perchance?

RESPONDENT: I think it is lack of understanding.

RICHARD: Why do you think it is lack of understanding?

RESPONDENT: Why do you say ‘lack of interest’?

RICHARD: The following speaks for itself:

• [Respondent]: ‘... I don’t have enough motivation to go beyond this [dropping the feeling so early, upon it beginning to arise, as if it never arose], because this itself is much better than most of my peers’. (Monday 1/08/2005 5:19 PM).

RESPONDENT: How would a person with more interest would go about the scenario I described?

RICHARD: Just for starters ... each moment again (and not just once, eight days after saying they would try their best, and then reporting failure).

Continued on Direct Route: No. 29


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