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Jiddu Krishnamurti
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Let me point at an anecdote. Some people had heard
from Krishnamurti. They heard that he was called by others the ‘world teacher’. So they went to him to put this
‘arrogant bastard’ right. But when they actually met him all of this aggression vanished, because they saw
immediately that they were mistaken.
Talking about Krishnamurti – he was the one who was treacherous,
suspicious, malicious and dishonest in his relationship to his mistress of long years (the wife of his best friend). He
even dragged people to court in his old age and inflicted immense suffering on those closest and dearest to him. The
daughter of his mistress had lived with him in the first 20 years of her life and has given a very detailed and
amazingly objective account of his actions in his private life, that depict a stark contrast to his ‘teachings’ in
public. And he was even recognised to be enlightened! It certainly does not save him from being a nuisance! – Not that
Rajneesh was any better. He was another nuisance on the grand scale!

I wouldn’t say it is shameful to attach oneself
that deeply to another, but it is futile and silly.
Says he who has been defending Krishnamurti’s teachings like all get out,
only to deny that you have ever followed any teachers or teachings at all. You also seem to persistently and stubbornly
ignore the fact that I fully acknowledge drawing from Richard’s expertise and that I am applying the method he
developed in order to become free of the Human Condition in me. This has zilch to do with worshipping a master with
love, dedication and humble gratitude. I don’t expect that you will understand the difference because it is apparent
that you have not explored the true nature of power and authority in the spiritual world.
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First you must carefully read what is written rather than rewrite what is
written so that it suits your own teachings and wisdom. Your carelessness keeps you stuck to the Tried and Failed
methods of Krishnamurti’s teachings and prevents you from carefully considering the third alternative that is being
offered. I do understand that you might still not quite understand what is being offered for it took me months and
months of careful considered word for word reading and a good deal of reflecting, contemplating and nutting out to begin
to get a glimpse of the vast poles-apart difference between what is spiritual and what is actual. But the rewards of
abandoning the Tried and Failed spiritual path and applying the method has resulted in a freedom, peace and happiness
that is already beyond my wildest dreams. The result far surpasses anything offered or achieved in the spiritual world,
for this freedom, peace and happiness is actual, palpable, tangible and eminently liveable in the world as-it-is with
people as-they-are.
First of all, I regard Krishnamurti’s words as
art, as literature: nothing more. As I said above someplace, I wanted to challenge your cock-sureness that your
actualistic ideas are some kind of Truth, which all other poor, unfortunate human beings have missed out on. You see,
all philosophy is the ‘tried and failed’.
Ah, now you finally reveal your motivation for this conversation. You are not
writing to another human being in order to compare notes and convey experiences, you merely want to ‘challenge [my]
cock-sureness’ in order to cut me down to size, to subdue me into ‘long overdue silence’, to put me in
my place and teach me the ethics of spiritual humbleness. I must acknowledge that you are putting a good deal of effort
into cutting me down to size.
This attitude against anything new that is not ‘corroborated by
others’, as you said before, reminds me of Galileo Galilei who stood trial for his empirical confirmation that the
earth, in fact, moves around the sun and not, as was generally believed in those days, the sun around the earth.
‘His position represented such a radical departure
from accepted thought that he was tried by the Inquisition in Rome, ordered to recant, and forced to spend the last
eight years of his life under house arrest.’ (Encyclopaedia Britannica)
Galileo was ‘cock-sure’ because he had factual evidence of
Copernicus’ mathematical calculations, but it took another 350 years before the leader of the Catholic Church would
acknowledge these findings as factual.
You may now add actualism to the junk pile, as it
too is but another philosophy, another method. Krishnamurti did say that he proposed no method, and, having read some of
his words, I am inclined to agree, as his is ‘find out’, whereas yours is ‘follow me’, or as it were,
‘actualism’.
So Krishnamurti’s often repeated admonition to ‘not follow’ is
dutifully followed in that you also don’t follow? However, Krishnamurti consistently referred to all his words as
‘Teachings’ and he proposed a method all right, which was the very point where this conversation started. He said
–
‘Observing thought I must love the very thing I am
studying. ... Similarly, to understand what is, one must observe what one thinks, feels and does from moment to
moment.’ J. Krishnamurti, from: The Book of Life
However, this proposed method, combined with the admonition not to follow did
not produce the desired result – nobody ‘got it’. Vis:
‘You won’t find another body like this, or that
supreme intelligence, operating in a body for many hundred years. You won’t see it again. When he goes, it goes. There
is no consciousness left behind of that consciousness, of that state. They’ll all pretend or try to imagine they can
get in touch with that. Perhaps they will somewhat if they live the teachings. But nobody has done it. Nobody. And so
that’s that’. (pages 148-149: ‘The Open Door’; Mary Lutyens. London: John
Murray 1998).
So then, what are the actual benefits of Krishnamurti’s ‘no method’,
and his admonishment to ‘find out’ and not follow? One outcome I see is ‘they’ll all pretend or try to
imagine they can get in touch with that’ and that everyone will frantically assert that ‘I don’t follow’,
thereby loyally following Krishnamurti’s admonitions. His admonitions really put people’s knickers in a twist!
Personally, I have chosen to stand on my own feet and have investigated all
my beliefs in authority, whether the authority says ‘follow me’ like Mr. Rajneesh or ‘don’t follow me’ like
Mr. J. Krishnamurti or ‘you are just a follower’ like Mr. No 8.

Well, let me tell you something else. In my eyes,
what you describe, sorry to say, is peanuts when I compare it with what I had to go through when the process started in
me. In the early years this ‘process’ was so severe, and was so painful in my head, that it took me no less than 1
1/2 years, in the first year meditating for 8 hours a day, and the 1/2 year after that 5 hours a day, to let my body
adapt to the immense pressure that penetrated my skull, and to be able to perform the most basic tasks of daily life. In
this period of time I had very frequent and very severe cramp-like attacks, much like epilepsy, with its severity. And
even during the 8 years following these years, wherein I continued to meditate for at least 2 hours a day, these attacks
persisted. My body had to adapt to an energy that was of such an extremity as only somebody like Mr. Jiddu Krishnamurti
and the likes can imagine. In fact, Mr. Jiddu Krishnamurti’s passing out at the most odd moments because of the
severity of this energy was a very known phenomenon to all of the people close to them. It happens that my constitution
is much stronger than that of Mr. Jiddu Krishnamurti, and therefore I have never passed out. Still, every time such an
attack emerged it was a very intense ‘discharge’, causing me to be totally out of breath.
This is what I mean by escapist: sitting in a room with closed eyes for hours
on end, retreating just into the head and pretending the rest of the world does not exist! I tell you, compared to your
coco-nuts I do prefer my peanuts. At least there is no headache or epilepsy-like symptoms!
You compare yourself to J. Krishnamurti, thinking what a great achievement
your process is (is this maybe called ego?). If you read Radha Rajagopal-Sloss’ book ‘Lives in the Shadow with J.
Krishnamurti’ you can see for yourself that this man as a human being in his private life had no quality worth
emulating. Your ideas of achievement go along the scales of suffering – Greatest He Who Suffers Most. But this will
also be the solution that you are offering to other people: suffering. As if the world is not already full of it! Why
add severe headaches to the trouble everyone already has?!

My previous teachings to me are about the actual.
For example, a key ingredient of my previous teachings is about having a direct experience of the actual which I feel is
necessary to having a PCE.
I am stunned that you can call Mr. Jiddu Krishnamurti’s teaching being
‘about the actual’. If you had followed a bit of Richard’s extensive correspondence with many, many people on this
very same teacher’s mailing list, you would at least have noted that Mr. Jiddu Krishnamurti’s concern is the
transcendental and nothing but the transcendental. Vis:
‘If you have come this far in meditation, you will
find there is silence, a total emptiness ... ... therefore there is a possibility for that which is timeless, eternal,
to come into being ... ... the discovery of truth, or God demands great intelligence, which is not assertion of belief
or disbelief, but the recognition of the hindrances created by lack of intelligence. So to discover God or truth – and
I say such a thing does exist, I have realised it – to recognise that, to realise that, mind must be free of all the
hindrances which have been created throughout the ages’. (The Book Of Life: Daily Meditations With J. Krishnamurti’, December Chapter. Published by Harper, San
Francisco. Copyright ©1995 Krishnamurti Foundation of America).
In order to be able to say that Mr. Krishnamurti’s teachings to you are ‘about
the actual’ you have to either ignore 90% of Krishnamurti’s teachings or twist the meaning of the word
‘actual’ into meaning spiritual and transcendental. ‘The key ingredient of [your] previous teachings is about
having a direct experience’ of the divine, not the actual. Vis:
‘I have seen the glorious and healing Light. The
fountain of Truth has been revealed to me and the darkness has been dispersed. Love in all its glory has intoxicated my
heart; my heart can never be closed. I have drunk at the fountain of Joy and eternal Beauty. I am God-intoxicated’. (‘Krishnamurti: The Years Of Awakening’ Mary Lutyens; Avon Books, New York, 1991).
I have no problem with whatever name you might give to your goal and your
experiences but denial and transcendence are sure methods of avoiding a Pure Consciousness Experience. For comparison I
copied a description of a direct experiencing of the actual.
Richard: Hence my oft-repeated refrain: ‘I am the
material universe experiencing itself as a sensate and reflective human being’ or ‘I am the experience of the
infinitude of this universe as this flesh and blood body being apperceptively aware’. The infinite character of
physical space, coupled with the eternal character of time, produces a here and now infinitude that can be understood
experientially by one who is apperceptive. To grasp the character of infinitude with certainty, the reasoning mind must
forsake its favoured process of intellectual understanding through logical and/or intuitive imagination and enter into
the realm of a pure consciousness experience (apperception). In a PCE – which is where there is no ‘I’ or ‘me’
extant – the essential characteristics of infinitude are transparently obvious, lucidly self-evident, clearly apparent
and open to view.
This is a direct experiencing of the actual. Richard, List B, No 13
My previous teachings to me are about the actual.
For example, a key ingredient of my previous teachings is about having a direct experience of the actual which I feel is
necessary to having a PCE.
If Krishnamurti’s method and other methods of ‘self-discovery’ or
‘self-knowledge’ were able to produce a PCE, it would have happened by now, don’t you think?
I acknowledge that to grasp even a glimpse of the actual world is very
difficult because normal reality is all we know and spiritual reality is all we imagine. For that very reason it is so
vital to remember or to experience a pure consciousness experience. However, changing a few words, applying your
previous spiritual methods and denying even being spiritual at all is a sure recipe of cutting yourself off from ever
experiencing anything outside of the Human Condition.
Direct experience of the actual would be being with
this monitor without having other thoughts about the past, etc. I’m not into any new age teachings. I clearly see the
difference between sensual feelings and affective feelings.
As you might have gleaned from Richard’s description, your ‘direct
experience of the actual’ and Richard’s direct experience of the actual are two different pairs of shoes. The choice
is always yours.

In order to be able to say that Mr. Krishnamurti’s teachings to you are ‘about
the actual’ you have to either ignore 90% of Krishnamurti’s teachings or twist the meaning of the word
‘actual’ into meaning spiritual and transcendental. ‘The key ingredient of [your] previous teachings is about
having a direct experience’ of the divine, not the actual. Vis:
‘I have seen the glorious and healing Light. The
fountain of Truth has been revealed to me and the darkness has been dispersed. Love in all its glory has intoxicated my
heart; my heart can never be closed. I have drunk at the fountain of Joy and eternal Beauty. I am God-intoxicated’. (‘Krishnamurti: The Years Of Awakening’ Mary Lutyens; Avon Books, New York, 1991).
I was talking about the teachings themselves such as
being aware of what I am actually doing, thinking and feeling from moment to moment and you have added a quote from his
early years and what he may or may not have meant by truth at that period of his life.
I find it interesting that you should object to the relevance of the above
quote from J. Krishnamurti by saying that it was ‘from his early years’. This is one of the several stock
standard responses that were used by several faithful followers of Krishnamurti when Richard introduced quotes on the
Listening-L mailing list to prove a point he was making. Only in September last year Richard had a lengthy discussion
with one correspondent about that very same argument ... ‘from his early years’. You were also writing on the
list at the same time but maybe you missed the exchange. I have copied the relevant correspondence at the end of this
letter.
I had posted this particular quote because I know from my thorough
investigation into my years of spiritual dependency that you cannot separate the teachings from the teacher and just
pick out a some advice that seem worth applying in your life and ignore the rest. The above quote shows clearly, as do
many others from his later years, that J. Krishnamurti was a through and through spiritual person – ‘God-intoxicated’
– and his declared purpose was to teach people how to achieve this experience for themselves. Vis.:
‘Those who really desire to understand, who are
looking to find that which is eternal, without beginning and without an end ... ... will become the flame, because they
understand. Such a body we must create, and that is my purpose’. J.
Krishnamurti, 1929
Therefore, following his method can, at the most, lead you to what he
achieved – becoming yet another spiritual teacher immersed in ‘that which is eternal’ – and not knowing
anything about a ‘direct experience with the actual’.
I have been spiritual in my life but I am not
spiritual now. Truth to me is what I am actually doing, thinking and feeling from moment to moment. I’m sorry if I
have wasted your time. I will continue to look and see if I have any spirituality.
Personally, I was never attracted to J. Krishnamurti or his teachings as I
considered them too dry and theoretical at the time of my spiritual involvement. Instead, I got sucked into the
emotional indulgence and the escalating esoteric extravagance of Mr. Mohan Rajneesh. Yet the relationship that I had to
him as my master differs not from the relationship that other followers have to their particular master – is it
invariably epitomized by unquestioning adoration, deep felt loyalty, a love that excuses and defends the master’s
every word or deed and the pride of being a disciple of such rare outstanding and powerful personality. Krishnamurti’s
claim that he did not want to be a master nor want his followers to be devotees only created an apparent intellectual
coolness but it never altered the fervent emotional ties that each of his followers had, and still has, with him. If you
take the time and read through some of Richard’s correspondence with mailing list B you will
quickly understand what I mean.
Before I could learn, explore or even consider that there was any new approach
to life I had to question this highly emotional relationship to the one teacher that I had considered to be the only
authority and fountain of wisdom. My worldview was coloured and measured against the authority of his words and
teachings. If others stated similar views and ‘wisdoms’, I considered them right, if not, they were wrong. My
judgements had nothing to do with my personal investigation of facts at all; it was solely a ‘feeling right’
decision according to my preconceived convictions solely derived from the master’s viewpoint – and the fact that he
had been dead for 10 years did not change my emotional dependency on his authority at all.
An honest and in-depth investigation of the facts of the situation was only
possible after I ‘tore Rajneesh out of my heart’, became a traitor to his message and his ‘sangha’ and thus
became independent of his imagined approval or condemnation. Only then was I able to listen to his discourses and judge
with my newly freed intelligence instead of ‘my heart’ and to discover his mindless twaddle and ‘compassionate
lies’, his manipulation and deceit, his outright distortions and underlying ancient rotten Indian belief-system. Now I
could start the long and fascinating journey of unravelling the intricate web of the psychic world – the Eastern
spiritual fears of endless karma, the hope for transcendence, the reverence for intuition, love, compassion, bliss and
enlightenment. Once one starts to see the psychic world and how it functions, the word ‘spiritual’ is revealed in
its fuller and more comprehensive meaning.
You felt moved to defend your teacher the moment I quoted him in order to
prove that he is concerned only with the spiritual and the divine and not with the actual. This reaction indicates where
to look when you want to ‘see if [you] have any spirituality’. So in order to ‘continue to look and see
if [you] have any spirituality’, you will first and foremost have to consider and investigate your affective
relationship to your ‘previous’ teacher and teachings. Otherwise any factual discussion about what Krishnamurti said
or meant will be distorted by the emotions that are instigating automatic instinctual (or, as LeDoux calls them,
‘quick and dirty’) reactions rather than considered intelligent responses.

As the actual world is already always here one is bound to stumble upon it by
diligently removing the obstacles in front of one’s ‘psychic eyes’ that we have inherited by default – through
no fault of ours.
Yes...’stumble upon it’, an apt description of
serendipity. Had I not participated on the Krishnamurti listening-l list, I would not have been acquainted with
Richard’s experiences, nor those of any of the others of you. At the time, I was wallowing around in the morass of
choiceless awareness and was frequently confused and in turmoil. It seemed to be a bottomless pit, and as with
Krishnamurti, there is no ‘way’, no method, I was loath to find a way out. But I was looking for a way out in spite
of ‘the teachings’.
Yes, serendipity is taking the opportunity that comes along – you have been
the only one so far of all the fifty people who Richard corresponded with on that list and maybe 50 more who read what
he wrote. We have given away 40 of Peter’s journals and sold 25 of Richard’s journal, written on several mailing
lists and I am always stunned by the disinterest and the amount of petty or virulent objections to becoming happy and
harmless. It obviously takes the right ingredients to be daring and willing to take up the challenge – watching your
exploration into actualism I understand more and more what kind of ingredients one needs.
And yes, Eastern spirituality is a bottomless pit and Krishnamurti’s
teaching has the particular twist that you should listen but not interpret, listen but not follow, aspire but never
reach. What an insidious legacy, keeping everyone small and ignorant – and this is called Compassion! But then, no
belief has common sense in it; otherwise it would not require belief.

Observing thought I must love the very thing I am
studying. If you want to understand a child, you must love and not condemn him. You must play with him, watch his
movements, his idiosyncrasies, his ways of behaviour; but if you merely condemn, resist or blame him, there is no
comprehension of the child.
Similarly, to understand what is, one must observe what one thinks, feels and
does from moment to moment. That is the actual. J. Krishnamurti, from: The
Book of Life
This is what K means by the actual to me. I don’t
see anything divine about this. It is what I am actually thinking, feeling and doing from moment to moment. This is
‘what is’. It is not what I want it to be or what it should be but what I am actually thinking, feeling and doing
from moment to moment. What do you say?
The actual that is evidenced by a pure consciousness experience is what is
left when the ‘believer’, the ‘feeler’ and the ‘thinker’ – all of the ‘self’ – is in abeyance, when
all ‘my’ input has ceased. Then a tree is simply a tree, a coffee cup is a coffee cup and street noise is simply
street noise without any emotional or spiritual relevance to the eyes seeing and the ears hearing. There is no malice
and sorrow, no love and condemnation, no affective or philosophical meaning in anything actual. This is the actual
world, which only becomes apparent in its utter magic and ever-fresh exuberance when the ‘self’ is either
temporarily absent or permanently extinct.
Krishnamurti’s ‘actual’ is a different experience – it is polluted by
love. His imperative is ‘you must love’ in order to ‘understand what is’. This ‘observing thought’
, according to Krishnamurti’s imperative, is actually an observation of feelings and he is making a preconditioned
judgement of what is to be considered good and what is to be considered bad, as in ‘you must love and not condemn
him’. According to Krishnamurti one must love ‘what one thinks, feels and does from moment to moment’.
Thus the lover as an identity does not disappear but is only strengthened by this highly conditional method of
observation. Therefore the understanding and experience of ‘what is’ is not the pure ‘self’-less
actuality of this moment – it is the traditional love-enhanced viewpoint, the divine Reality of ‘What Is’,
overlaying and corrupting the experience of the purity and perfection of the physical universe.
If you want to conduct a sincere and fruitful investigation into your
instinctual passions you will have to abandon any preconditioned and preconceived ideas of what is right or wrong, good
or bad.
To discover the actual world beyond my beliefs, feeling and instinctual
passions I don’t merely observe what I think, feel and do from moment to moment, but I actively and unconditionally
investigate into the cause, the core, the root, the why and how and when of ‘who’ I think, feel and instinctually
know ‘I’ am. When I arrive at the root of an emotion or emotion-backed thought and see the passionate investment of
my identity wanting to stay in existence through feeling and emotion, I can then deliberately abandon my investment and
step out of this particular aspect of ‘me’.
Once you do this with diligence, honesty and persistence for a year or so,
there is not much left of ‘you’, neither the loving ‘you’ nor the condemning ‘you’. Already this much is a
truly remarkable freedom.

My so-called assumption today is that you have yet to understand the
difference between spiritualism and actualism and between the spiritual world and the actual world. Without
understanding and acknowledging the difference between the two, you cannot genuinely begin to practice actualism.
Actualism by its very nature has nothing at all to do with spiritual practices aimed at discovering the ‘fountain
of Truth’.
Your assumption is based on your interpretation of what
was said in the past. Here and now I thoroughly understand the difference between the spiritual and the actual and I am
definitely not spiritual.
You sound no different than a street corner preacher to me. You keep trying
to shove your religion down my throat even though I have clearly stated that I don’t want it. I don’t have to use
the actualism method to investigate myself.
Whatever method you have used so far to investigate has not helped you to
recognize what is meant by the word non-spiritual, otherwise you would recognize the silliness of your religious
concepts about actualism. In Actual Freedom you won’t find God or Love or a Higher Self or life after death or any
kind of spiritual non-physical energy or any Supreme Intelligence. This absence is not a clever linguistic ploy but a
direct result of the fact that in the actual world there is no God nor Love nor a Higher Self nor life after death nor
any kind of spiritual non-physical energy nor any Supreme Intelligence. That you ignore all this factual evidence and
still keep persisting in you own religious concepts of actualism may well be because you want your teacher Jiddu
Krishnamurti to appear non-spiritual despite the fact that his teachings are littered with spiritual-religious words.
Here are only two examples of J. Krishnamurti’s spiritual teachings –
‘That state of mind which is no longer capable of
striving is the true religious mind, and in that state of mind you may come upon this thing called truth or reality or
bliss or God or beauty or love’. (‘Freedom From The Known’; ©1969
Krishnamurti Foundation Trust Ltd).
‘If you have come this far in meditation, you will
find there is silence, a total emptiness (...) therefore there is a possibility for that which is timeless, eternal, to
come into being (...) the discovery of truth, or God demands great intelligence, which is not assertion of belief or
disbelief, but the recognition of the hindrances created by lack of intelligence. So to discover God or truth – and I
say such a thing does exist, I have realised it – to recognise that, to realise that, mind must be free of all the
hindrances which have been created throughout the ages’. (The Book Of Life:
Daily Meditations With J. Krishnamurti’, December Chapter. Published by Harper, San Francisco. Copyright ©1995
Krishnamurti Foundation of America).
I make this assumption on the basis of experience with many people who I have
talked about abandoning the spiritual path and so many of them have immediately said they are non-spiritual as well and
then talked about Rajneesh, Krishnamurti, Buddhism, and the like as saying exactly what I am saying. I can only assume
that too many years on the spiritual path means that words get to have no meaning whatsoever.
Spiritual methods are based on the idea that one only needs to change one’s
concept of oneself and then Everything, or better, God, the Truth, the Good and the Beauty will be revealed. The Advaita
method of ‘You are already That’ and you only need to remember this often enough makes the spiritual concept of no
change most obvious.
When one applies the actualism method one does not merely change one’s
concepts but investigates every inkling of spiritual-religious belief, concept, idea and all its related feelings. In
actualism one dedicates oneself to bring about actual and irrevocable change in one’s software programming, both the
social-spiritual conditioning and the instinctual survival program. Only continuous practical commitment and stubborn
effort will bring about an actual change and free one’s senses from the social shackles we grow up with and the
instinctual passions we are born with, and that is one of the main reasons why actualism is so unpopular.
However, the rewards are beyond my wildest dreams.

So I do not subscribe to the difference between
‘reality’ and ‘actuality’ Richard makes.
Of course, you don’t. In order to know ‘the difference between
‘reality’ and ‘actuality’ Richard makes’ one needs to have experienced actuality, which only becomes
apparent when both ‘‘I’ and ‘Self’’ are absent.
Whenever you ‘are seeing something as it actually
is’, it is part of ‘your world’, and therefore it is part of your understanding. Now our language system is such,
that anything we understand is also something we can express verbally. This verbal expression of ‘a fact we are aware
of’ is nothing else than ‘a truth’. So the difference between ‘actual’ and ‘real’ is just a difference of
perspective. When we become totally aware, totally conscious of some actual fact, we can express it in language. This
expression of language is then a representation of the actual fact. And that is, logically speaking, exactly the same as
a truth. To think that they are of an essentially different order, as Richard asserts, is, again, the fallacy of
representation, as I have explained above.
Now if you go ‘all the way, you then come to the understanding of J.
Krishnamurti, namely that that what you see in other bodies as their ‘person’ is what they experience as ‘the
world’. You then begin to see, that there is no difference between ‘I’ and ‘world’ other than a difference in
perspective.
Your definition of ‘something as it actually is’ is J.
Krishnamurti’s personal definition of the term ‘actual’. J. Krishnamurti makes it perfectly clear that for him
‘what actually is’ is one’s affective perception of the world, one’s feelings, beliefs and passions. Vis:
‘We are always avoiding ‘what is’ ... my
loneliness, emptiness, sorrow, pain, suffering, anxiety, fear, that is actually ‘what is’. (Part 3; ‘Truth and Actuality’; J. Krishnamurti, Autumn 1975; Published by KFI; ISBN
PBTA78)
J. Krishnamurti, like all spiritual teachers, never questioned his own
special affective perception of the world – otherwise he would have been in for a surprise, the surprise that there is
a pure and perfect actual world hidden beneath one’s emotional-spiritual perception. Richard’s description of
actuality, however, is the description of his ongoing experience of the world as it is, when the flesh-and-blood body is
devoid of any ‘self’ or ‘Self’ whatsoever. Actuality is what becomes apparent when ‘my’ perception of ‘the
world’ has ceased.
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What he failed to see, and what is characteristic of
the kind of enlightenment of J. Krishnamurti and me, is that the ‘Self’ is identical with ‘The world’. He
interprets it as a form of ‘magnanimous self-glorification’. But that is not what this statement means. When J.
Krishnamurti says: ‘you are the world, that is a fact’, he means to say, that ‘that what you consider to be ‘the
world’ is in reality nothing else than your person. It is the total of all of your understandings from which your
actions arise. What you experience as ‘the world’ is what somebody else would designate as ‘your person’.
As for ‘the kind of enlightenment of J. Krishnamurti and me’ –
J. Krishnamurti at least was genuinely deluded while it would be more honest for you to admit that you are busily
pretending to be something that is yet to happen.
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However, he did take the following step. Seeing
‘emotions’ as the culprit.
Which is more than Jiddu Krishnamurti ever understood, not to mention your
own confusion of emotions with intelligence.
But he did not move further. Instead of seeing how
emotions arise from the picture of the world, and seeing its identity with the ‘Self’ as in the statement of J.
Krishnamurti: ‘you are the world, that is a fact’, he paused at emotions, and tried to develop a system whereby you
can eliminate emotions.
‘The statement of J. Krishnamurti: ‘you are the world, that is a
fact’’ is J. Krishnamurti’s limitation to venture beyond his grand personal affective perception of the world
– the typical limitation of Eastern mysticism. Given that you have put yourself on the same pedestal as Jiddu
Krishnamurti, as in ‘the kind of enlightenment of J. Krishnamurti and me’, you also still have to venture
beyond your grand personal affective perception of the world and investigate and experientially understand your own
emotions ‘as the culprit’.
His system does this in two ways, one legitimate, the
other destructive. The legitimate part is trying to become totally aware of your emotions. The illegitimate part is
trying to confine the mind to the concrete.
It is your conceptual invention that actualism is a system. It is you who
keeps trying to make assorted systems out of how Richard experiences the actual world – a flesh-and-blood body without
identity. If you want to consider actuality ‘illegitimate’ then that is your limited personal viewpoint. The
division of your world into abstract / concrete and legitimate / illegitimate is mere ethical conceptualization and has
nothing to do with actuality and facts.
Personally, I questioned my own affective perception of the world about
abstract and concrete and replaced them with facts and I questioned my moral and ethical values and replaced them with
common sense. This way it is very easy – if one is so inclined – to move beyond one’s ‘picture of the
world’ and the well-trodden spiritual path of ‘you are the world, that is a fact’.

The only person who has made such an analysis of
anger of this generality, taking both the advantages and the disadvantages into account, and who has found ‘rock
bottom’ is J. Krishnamurti. He stated, that every emotion arises from thought. This is consistent with the finding
that people have different emotional reactions to the same events. To be precise, those thoughts you have accepted as
‘true’. Meaning, that they are, when verbalized, accurate descriptions of whole classes of actualities and facts.
Anything you accept as an adequate description of actual facts, i.e., truths, becomes, by the very act of accepting a
source of emotions. When somebody doubts these truths, they generate anger, or dismissals, as in your case. And as such
they cause the ‘human condition’.
That is the message of J. Krishnamurti.
Far from being the only one who ‘who has found ‘rock bottom’’ J.
Krishnamurti was also not the only one whose personal actions in life proved his teachings of peace and bliss wrong. Not
only did he betray his best friend Rajagopal by having a long-standing affair with his wife but he also sued the same
man over endless lawsuits for documents he did not want to be published. In case you want to verify this information,
here is the text of the final settlement of the lawsuits (written in legalese language) –
‘... the Krishnamurti Parties acknowledge that the
documents they sought to recover from the Rajagopal Parties in the prior lawsuits are, in fact, Rajagopal’s documents
and may be kept by Rajagopal’. (Case No. 79918, D. Rajagopal, et al. v. J
Krishnamurti et al., Superior Court of the State of California for the County of Ventura).
Therefore, whatever his ‘analysis of anger’ was, he did not apply
it to himself and if he did, it did not work.
It is also one of the great spiritual tricks to blur the difference between a
fact and what one believes to be true. Belief relies on hearsay, trust and hope and is usually passionate defended, ‘a
source of emotions’, as you say. A fact is simple ‘what is the case’, it stands for itself. This monitor I am
looking at has a screen made of glass – this is a fact, verifiable by the manufacturer or other experts. You may
believe otherwise but that does not change the fact. Therefore stating a fact needs neither believing nor trusting nor
hoping nor any other ‘source of emotion’ – it is simply factual.

We will never know what is out there, lets call it underlying reality.
The identity parasitically inhabiting the flesh and blood body superimposes
an affective ‘underlying reality’ over the actual universe. This ‘underlying reality’ created by
the identity inhabiting the flesh and blood can be observed, questioned and investigated and the identity thus weakened
– this is the process of actualism.
To defend the ‘underlying reality’ as unchangeable is to resign to
being trapped within the human condition of malice and sorrow for the rest of one’s life.
Is like the TV unless we have the receiver nothing can take place. The TV
signals that exist now in my room are silent and colourless. Lets say the TV receiver is the brain.
This is a good example.
A television’s audiovisual signal begins with the
conversion of an image and accompanying sound into an electronic code by a television camera. The resulting electronic
signals are usually recorded on tape, and for transmission, or broadcasting, they are impressed on high-frequency radio
waves that act as carriers. After transmission by a broadcasting antenna, the carrier waves are picked up by a receiving
antenna, which carries them to the television receiver. Encyclopaedia Britannica
The high-frequency radio waves acting as carriers for the transmitted images
and sounds exist independently of the TV screen that displays image and sound. Both the transmitter and the
high-frequency waves exist as an actuality and the signals and images are being simultaneously converted into identical
images on many, many TVs regardless of whether your own TV is switched on and is converting the signal into an image.
This fact is contrary to your philosophy of ‘unless we have the receiver nothing can take place’ – a
completely ‘self’ centred viewpoint.
‘Lets say the TV receiver is the brain’ – even without your brain ‘creating’,
the universe is continuously taking place.
So I arrived in the logical (at least for me) that the perception is a
syntheton (composed) phenomenon.
The perceiver and the perceived are one thing.
You have mentioned in an earlier post that you have read J. Krishnamurti for
10 years.
I wonder what logic came first – J. Krishnamurti’s teaching that ‘the
perceiver and the perceived are one thing’ or the logical-for-you conclusion ‘that perception is a syntheton
(composed) phenomenon’.
That what I was trying to say to Richard not where is due the green colour in
the chlorophyll etc. So the universe without our brains has really no meaning. There is no interaction in it.
Yes, I can see that this is a logical conclusion due to J. Krishnamurti’s
teachings. However, it is a subjective, anthropocentric and utterly ‘self’-centred perception of the universe. To
make oneself so important that ‘the universe without our brains has really no meaning’ is to dismiss the
splendour and magnificence that is already always here, was already always here before homo sapiens first trod the
planet and will be so long after homo sapiens cease to exist as a species.
Forget about consciousness there is no need for consciousness in what I am
saying.
Given that consciousness is the state of the body being conscious, you need
to be conscious in order to have this conversation. Rather than ‘forget about consciousness’, it has been
vital for me as an actualist to investigate consciousness as it is used in philosophical and spiritual circles –
4 The totality of the thoughts,
feelings, impressions, etc., of a person or group; such a body of thoughts etc. relating to a particular sphere; a
collective awareness or sense. Oxford Dictionary
What I discovered is that it is people’s precious consciousness, as in the ‘totality of the thoughts, feelings, impressions, etc., of a person or group’ which
prevents human beings from living in peace and harmony.
In your other email you named Osho. I consider him the biggest fraud of the
past century with his Mercedes,
By the way, Mohan Rajneesh didn’t drive Mercedes, but Rolls Royces.
I mentioned Mohan Rajneesh because Dr. Amrit Sorli, the man you quoted in
order to demonstrate the non-infinity of the universe, is apparently a follower of Mr. Rajneesh – he lives in a
Rajneesh centre and certainly sprouts ‘Sannyas wisdom’ in his various articles.
If you consider Mr. Rajneesh ‘the biggest fraud of the past century’
I am left wondering why you posted an article by one of his disciples as evidence to prove your point?
… and any other guru the same.
Does ‘any other guru’ also include J. Krishnamurti? I am only
asking because you stated that ‘the perceiver and the perceived are one thing’ – a basic teaching of J.
Krishnamurti.
It is undeniable that J. Krishnamurti was a guru – he talked for 52 years
in order to convey his teachings and some 15 years after his death some of his followers are still trying to listen,
understand or even live his teachings.
When I began to dismantle my spiritual beliefs I began to understand that it
is the revered state of Enlightenment itself that is fundamentally flawed and that it needs to be debunked for the
massive delusion it is.

May I comment about the paragraph below of your last
email?
<snip> Whenever I experience the stunning luminosity and perfection of
the actual world in a ‘self’-less experience, I am all the more inspired and determined to do whatever it takes to
live this experience 24 hours a day, 365 days a year. <snip>
The state of permanency (wanting to have always
peace, joy, bliss) is what all of us actually want, isn’t it? We want a state in which there will be no disturbance of
any kind and which will never come to an end, a permanent state which we call peace; and the mind is making a constant
effort to capture that state, to enter into it. So we have to understand the process that is involved in this effort.
Surely, the mind is seeking a permanent happiness, permanent stillness, a reality which is secure, unchanging; and as
long as the mind is seeking a permanent state, it must create paths to that state. But can we get it? Is there a state
which knows no change at all?
Actuality is ‘what is’ and what is is not a permanent state, it is a
constant movement because we are never the same from moment to moment, and to find out what is true, it is essential to
see what we are from moment to moment. Life is action; each moment of this action has never been before, and will never
be again. If we thought of ourselves as in a state of continual movement, then there would be no conflict between the
changing circumstances of life and the thing we now think of as being permanent. The constant desire for greater and
greater sensation must inevitably lead to pain and sorrow, as this desire makes us prisoners at the very beginning.
I can also see very clearly that there can be a state of mind in which there
is no change at all, but it can only come about when the mind is motionless and stable. Such a motionless state is a
still mind, not a dead mind, and it knows neither impermanency nor permanency. It is a mind that is completely quiet.
Such a mind does not demand change, and all its action springs from that silence. That is the only state in which the
conflict of the worrying mind completely ceases. So, is it possible to move from here to there, but not in time?
When you understand the whole process of change, and thereby let it drop away
from you, you will see that the mind is in a state of silence in which all movement of time has ceased, and that new
movement of silence is not recognizable and therefore not experienceable. Such a state does not demand change; it is in
eternal movement, and therefore beyond time.
Let us attack it from another point of view. Are you ever conscious of being
silent? Have you experienced silence? If you have experienced silence, then it is not silence, is it? If there is an
observer observing silence, then it is the projection of the experiencer – the experiencer wishing to be in a state of
silence. Therefore it is not silence. Reality can never be experienced; if you do experience reality, then it is not
reality because then there is the division between the experiencer and the experience. That division signifies duality
and all the conflicts of duality. So silence can never be experienced.
A mind which is silent is not conscious that it is silent. So also with
humility. If you are conscious that you are humble, then that is not humility. If I am conscious that I know, then I am
ignorant. If I am conscious that my mind is silent, then there is no silence. So silence is a state of mind in which
there is the absence of the experiencer. Can you listen in that state of silence, being unaware that you are silent?
Any experience which has continuity is based on envy, on the demand for the
‘more’; so the mind must die to everything it has learned, acquired, experienced. Then you will find that the mind
is silent, and this silence has its own movement, uncontaminated by the past; therefore, it is possible for something
totally new to take place.
We think truth can be experienced right away through doing certain things.
You think there is a state which is permanent, and you want it, so you practice, discipline, do various methods or forms
of exercise, but you will not get it. The mind must be free – it must have no borders, no frontier, no limitation, no
conditioning. The whole sense of acquisitiveness must come to an end, but not in order to receive.
The ‘state of permanency’ you are referring to in your
regurgitation of Mr. Jiddu Krishnamurti’s teachings is not at all what I was talking about when I said to No 16 –
Your definition of ‘pce’s’ seems to differ from a pure
consciousness experience described in the AF writings, a PCE being a temporary glimpse of the actual freedom from the
human condition that Richard is living day by day. Whenever I experience the stunning luminosity and perfection of the
actual world in a ‘self’-less experience, I am all the more inspired and determined to do whatever it takes to live
this experience 24 hours a day, 365 days a year. Vineeto, List AF, No 16,
24.9.2003
The following links on the AF website can assist you in finding out in what
way any and all spiritual teachings lie 180 degree opposite to an actual freedom from the human condition which can be
temporarily experienced in a ‘self’-less pure consciousness experience.
http://www.actualfreedom.com.au/library/topics/180-degrees.htm
http://www.actualfreedom.com.au/library/topics/gurus.htm
If I were interested in teachings of Mr. Jiddu Krishnamurti’s, I would not
rely on rewrites from his followers but I would read what the man himself said. However, in my 15+ years of 24/7
involvement in Eastern mysticism I have gathered enough experience and evidence to be certain that none of the highly
revered teachings from the various masters does deliver the goods. What’s more, peace on earth is not even on their
agenda. Mr. Jiddu Krishnamurti himself has made it clear to all who take his words to be the Truth that following his
‘Teachings’ will not result in any of his followers manifesting the ‘supreme intelligence’ he claimed to
have had –
‘You won’t find another body like this, or that
supreme intelligence, operating in a body for many hundred years. You won’t see it again. When he goes, it goes.’
(pages 148-149: ‘The Open Door’; Mary Lutyens. London: John Murray 1998).
If you had not been so keen to peddle your borrowed wisdom on this list, you
might have taken notice that the very first line on the Actual Freedom Homepage reads –
‘A New and Non-Spiritual Down-to-Earth Freedom’.
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New means new, as in the only a decade-old discovery of a third
alternative to materialism and spiritualism.
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Non-spiritual means not at all spirit-laden, not pertaining to any of
the ancient wisdoms, having nothing at all to do with spirit, soul, Being, higher self, Higher Self, disembodied
Intelligence, fountain of Truth, Love, God, true religious mind or whatever other words are generally used for the
un-manifest ethereal intangible otherworldly non-physical constructs of passionate human imagination.
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Down-to-Earth means down to earth – here in this place now in this
moment in time in the infinitude of physical universe as this physical flesh-and-blood body, as opposed to the
other-worldly teachings pursuing an out-of-body bliss and an after-death peace.
I admit one needs a certain amount of naiveté to take those first six words
of the website at face value, given that there are a glut of snake oil sellers out and about advertising their
otherworldly rehash of ancient superstition as being not only new but also non-spiritual. However, if you have come
across this Actual Freedom mailing list because you are in some way disenchanted with Eastern mysticism then I suggest
you study the contents of the website rather than waste your time preaching to those who have moved on.

So finally you’ve decided to show up!
It has obviously escaped your attention but I showed up a good while ago. I
have been here on this mailing list since its inception – t’is you who are the most recent ‘new-gurus-buster’
in what is now a long line of a passing parade.
Thank you for welcoming me to this email-listing. I was curious to find out
what you guys of the AF are ‘actually’ saying – presently, now, in this moment, quasi live. Your website is too
old; it’s the past. So don’t direct me to it anymore, please. Be patient and kind and let us read your ‘actual’,
‘innate’ wisdom of this moment.
What I wrote 3 years ago is as valid today as what I write today. When I
discovered actualism in 1998 it took me about a year of diligently applying the method of actualism to rid myself of the
bulk of my social identity and then begin to explore the depth of my instinctual passions. Over a period of 5 years I
have repeatedly reported my experience as to how actualism delivers the goods to make me happy and harmless. From
numerous ‘self’-less, i.e. ego-less and being-less, pure consciousness experiences I have first hand knowledge that
the splendour and effervescence of the actual world that far supersedes any affective or spiritual experience of
freedom.
To dismiss what has been written before as being ‘too old’ is to
be disinterested about what another human being has to report about their discovery of how to bring about peace on
earth. Your dismissal of ‘too old, it’s the past’ particularly falls flat as you seem to have no problem
holding valid what Jiddu Krishnamurti has said more than half a century ago. Vis:
Yes, I’ve learned immensely from J Krishnamurti. To Richard, About Permanency, 29.9.2003
I have moved on from the ancient wisdom, esoteric and superstition that is
spirituality – the challenge for you now is, are you at all interested in something that is fresh and new?
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If you had not been so keen to peddle your borrowed wisdom on this list, you
might have taken notice that the very first line on the Actual Freedom Homepage reads –
‘A New and Non-Spiritual Down-to-Earth Freedom’.
[The tone of your words are personal] and harsh!
I read through my previous post to you very carefully and I did not find any
harsh words – unless you felt it to be harsh that I am not interested in regurgitations of Jiddu Krishnamurti’s
teachings.
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I admit one needs a certain amount of naiveté to take those first six words
of the website at face value, given that there are a glut of snake oil sellers out and about advertising their
otherworldly rehash of ancient superstition as being not only new but also non-spiritual. However, if you have come
across this Actual Freedom mailing list because you are in some way disenchanted with Eastern mysticism then I suggest
you study the contents of the website rather than waste your time preaching to those who have moved on.
No doubt you guys are very ‘learned’ of JK writings (the new search
engines help a lot on that). You all like to make propaganda of him, although in a negative way. Don’t bring dead
people to the arena, it will be more valuable to you if you can see the ‘regurgitation’ of your own conditioning.
Throw it out, get rid of it, so you can be decisively, permanently free and happy. Until then, to where are you seeing
‘those [your followers?] moving on’, where are they going? You are giving your ‘disciples’ the illusion of
spiritual progress. You are ‘those’, don’t escape from yourself with ‘those’.
May I ask what is your personal experiential expertise for giving advice to
others as how to conduct their lives? What of the wisdom you proffer has practically changed your life for the better in
that it made you more happy and more harmonious in relation to your fellow human beings? So far I have only read that
you practice being ‘tremendously aware of every movement of thought’ and that you practice ‘me listening
to myself; like a mirror’. (To Richard, About Permanency, 29.9.2003).
And your admonition to not bring dead people to the arena is odd given that it is you yourself who have come to this
list offering the teachings of a LDM (Long Dead Master)
As for ‘those who moved on’, I was referring to myself and those
few intrepid pioneers who have moved on from the ancient spiritual practices and philosophies and are interested in
actually changing themselves, not ‘saving’ others. As Actualism is a method to be practiced entirely on one’s own;
there are neither gurus nor followers nor disciples, so your jibes completely miss the mark on this list. I suggest
reading a post from No 47: http://www.topica.com/lists/actualfreedom/read/message.html?mid=908332140&sort=d&start=1982,
as it might be useful to be aware of some responses to the other guru-busters and flamers who have come and
gone before engaging in further foolishness.
As for the ‘illusion of spiritual progress’ – given that
actualism is utterly and completely non-spiritual, as I have already explained in my last post to you – there is no
such thing as ‘spiritual progress’. The progress lies in becoming more and more happy and harmless, more and
more free from malice and sorrow and ever more delighting in being here. This progress is tangible, palpable and
existing in fact.
You and I share the same consciousness field. We are like the rest of the
world.
No, both of your statements are wrong. You and I don’t ‘share the same
consciousness field’. You follow the guidelines of a died-in-the-wool spiritualist who described himself as
God-realized while I have long ago rid myself of all spiritual beliefs – you and I are poles apart.
Don’t be so concerned with ‘pces’, ‘supreme intelligences’ or
whatever names are given by those who believe have attained something. You are envious of them and their extraordinary
experiences – you want to be as ‘special’ a being as they are.
There is a world of difference between a PCE and the ‘supreme
intelligence’ of spiritual fame – 180 degrees opposite in fact (see ).
Your statement is meaningless which makes your admonitions nonsense.
I certainly don’t want to be ‘as they are’ – I have studied
the gurus, both male and female, both from afar and up close, and I didn’t like their lifestyle, I didn’t like how
they were with their women or men and I didn’t like how they treated their fellow human beings. How can I be envious
of them when I have found something far superior to spiritual enlightenment – the method to an actual tangible
palpable freedom from the human condition, and the corroboration that the method works in practice – it has thus far
produced a virtual freedom from malice and sorrow 99% of the time.
Has the thought ever crossed your mind, or should I say have you ever been
aware of a movement of thought, that you might be wasting your time ‘busting’ what doesn’t exist here at all?

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